Back Some of Them Will Carry Me
Chapters (40)
  1. Cover
  2. THE CORD
  3. FREEDOM OF WHITE BOYS IN THE SAND
  4. GEORGE WASHINGTON’S DENTURES
  5. BARBERSHOP
  6. A TRIANGLE
  7. THE FOOT OF THE TAN BUILDING
  8. THE BALCONY
  9. LEAVE A FINGERPRINT, GNOCCHI
  10. THREE MONTHS OF BANANA
  11. YYYY
  12. PENDERGRASS
  13. ADULT HEAD
  14. CABBAGE, THE HIGHEST ARCH
  15. THE MISCONDUCT OF SAND, AND THE SEVEN
  16. FORTY-SEVEN DAYS AGO
  17. REAL NUMBER
  18. SPALDING
  19. THERE’S D’ANGELO’S GAP
  20. A DRY DROWNING, SPAGHETTI ALLE VONGOLE
  21. WET SAND USED AS AN ABRASIVE ELEMENT
  22. PEACH
  23. CEREMONY
  24. FALSE LASHES
  25. THE NEW HUSBAND
  26. PASTA, FAGIOLI + COZZE
  27. 540i
  28. BENDING
  29. HAINT
  30. POOL
  31. HANGNAILS, AND OTHER DISEASES
  32. LA GENOVESE
  33. CATCALLS
  34. CONSTELLATIONS
  35. IN THE SAND, THE NONCONFORMITY OF WOMEN WHO ARE VIOLENTLY SHUSHED
  36. THE ETHICS OF PIRACY
  37. APPENDIX
  38. NOTES & ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  39. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  40. DOROTHY, A PUBLISHING PROJECT
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No cars honking. No ambulances. No barking and no crying adults. No echo or wind in your ears.

After the post office but before returning home Serendipità stops at the bakery, the fish store, the ice cream parlor. She writes down all the things she wants on pieces of paper: cannoli, cento grammi di branzino, red grape sorbet. She hands the slips of paper to the cashiers. Everyone is outside, quiet. She picks flowers outside the ice cream parlor. Serendipità wears a shirt that sends a message—Dr. King in swimming trunks, the sun on his face and on his suprasternal notch, the rest of his body in shadow and surrounded by pool water.

At dusk she wastes time watching the traffic light change from red to green to yellow, standing on the corner for an hour looking at her building from below, at her balcony and all the green mesh netting. Then she returns home. At home she does things she wouldn’t do on a noisy day—lip synching, stretching, also mouthing vile things, being generally profane. In the silence she worries about the ongoing construction.

On the balcony the shadows move. Across the street the wind lifts a white sheet hanging from the clothesline, a big white sheet. Serendipità soaks the dried cannellini beans overnight to prepare for company.

After the silence there’s company. One of the workers isn’t prepared—no tools, no helmet, taking innumerable breaks, smoking breaks, and eating things from the refrigerator without asking. Serendipità finds her on the balcony, sitting down. She doesn’t reprimand her, but they both know she shouldn’t be out there, and that she shouldn’t be sitting. They sit together. Serendipità doesn’t know the worker’s name. While the others bang on the walls and ceilings, they sit together. They feed each other anchovies from a can. The others stand under the red ladder with dust on their arms, with dust on their construction boots, their helmets.

After the silence there’s company. It’s a day for company. They come over in large groups. They drink tea, they discuss politics or the latest societal scandals, the weather. It’s festive and slow. The one hundred construction workers are there, working around the festivities (except for the one construction worker who isn’t working and isn’t prepared).

This is Serendipità’s least favorite day; she doesn’t like gatherings or small talk. She’s in a black dress, velvet. She wears earrings that touch her shoulders. A large part of her back is exposed, a large v of skin, and the muscles in her back move as she moves to pick things up. She sometimes moves to the pitch-black bedroom to rest. After the day of silence the talk of this day burdens—piercing laughter and lipstick on teeth.

The company leaves without Serendipità seeing them out.

(There is a day that cannot be commented upon. It exists and it consists of an extension cord, grape jelly, and hominy grits.)