Back Some of Them Will Carry Me
Chapters (40)
  1. Cover
  2. THE CORD
  3. FREEDOM OF WHITE BOYS IN THE SAND
  4. GEORGE WASHINGTON’S DENTURES
  5. BARBERSHOP
  6. A TRIANGLE
  7. THE FOOT OF THE TAN BUILDING
  8. THE BALCONY
  9. LEAVE A FINGERPRINT, GNOCCHI
  10. THREE MONTHS OF BANANA
  11. YYYY
  12. PENDERGRASS
  13. ADULT HEAD
  14. CABBAGE, THE HIGHEST ARCH
  15. THE MISCONDUCT OF SAND, AND THE SEVEN
  16. FORTY-SEVEN DAYS AGO
  17. REAL NUMBER
  18. SPALDING
  19. THERE’S D’ANGELO’S GAP
  20. A DRY DROWNING, SPAGHETTI ALLE VONGOLE
  21. WET SAND USED AS AN ABRASIVE ELEMENT
  22. PEACH
  23. CEREMONY
  24. FALSE LASHES
  25. THE NEW HUSBAND
  26. PASTA, FAGIOLI + COZZE
  27. 540i
  28. BENDING
  29. HAINT
  30. POOL
  31. HANGNAILS, AND OTHER DISEASES
  32. LA GENOVESE
  33. CATCALLS
  34. CONSTELLATIONS
  35. IN THE SAND, THE NONCONFORMITY OF WOMEN WHO ARE VIOLENTLY SHUSHED
  36. THE ETHICS OF PIRACY
  37. APPENDIX
  38. NOTES & ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
  39. ABOUT THE AUTHOR
  40. DOROTHY, A PUBLISHING PROJECT

When we walked into the condo it was lit up in a red light, she preferred the red lighting, it helps with my eyes, Mya said. So in her condo everything was awash in red, even that tongue between her teeth and the teeth themselves above and below it. She placed rose water on her temples. The red light prevents damage to the retina, it produces collagen, it also helps you think more acutely, she said.

A manila envelope was near her right hand as she spoke, with a phone number and a name scrawled on it, something that began with an M; I couldn’t tell because the writing slanted and was mostly illegible. There were also circles on the envelope, a tornado of black ink, as if someone had tried a pen that was almost empty or dried from disuse.

On the television there was figure skating. The woman at the center of the rink wore green. Her left leg slid behind her right leg and the right foot was out in front of her, then it moved behind her left ankle, an impossible thing in the air, a fall. I’d missed more of Mya’s words while watching the ice. Mya continued, explaining something about elevators, about how they’re not completely closed or sealed, how air always gets in, which reminded me of a red elevator I often used when I’d lived elsewhere. Mya continued on.

There were dollar bills on the kitchen table. I noticed it from my place on the couch, rubber bands around stacks of dollar bills. I was curious about the money: What was it for? Then she was pointing at her breasts, and I listened to everything she said about them.

The rug had flowers in it. I didn’t know what type of flowers, but they were large and white against the black rug. On the walls near the baseboards someone had drawn something—an incoherent design with black markers, wild, as if made by a child. There was dust down there, on the baseboards and on the wooden furniture. There was dust on her perfume bottles. This was not how I would imagine taking care of a home. Mya was speaking about a blow dryer, something I wasn’t interested in. I thought of the palm trees moving in the humidity and a backdrop of balconies, hundreds of balconies, and of my hips burning from the sun.

It smelled sweet in her condo, honey. Outside, there was a swimming pool. The floor was a red clay set against the white border and the blue of the water, and in the pool some children were swimming unsupervised while Mya said, the cheese was all over the bedding that day, and though I didn’t understand what she meant I didn’t ask her to explain. The ladder could be seen under the water, and four stainless step pads.