There was pain in Lorne’s eyes as I asked for Declan. He must’ve thought I was picking Declan over him, but I wasn’t. I just wanted to get away from SpaceTech.

“Can you do it?”

Lorne gave me a sad smile as he brushed my hair from my face. “No. He can’t. I changed the jump controls before I left the desk. I won’t risk you, and I don’t trust Declan with your safety. Not anymore.”

Okay. That was out. I had one last thing I could do, but I didn’t want to do it. I really, seriously didn’t want to. But I didn’t want to find out what SpaceTech would do to us if they caught us. I couldn’t take that. Anything but that.

I looked at Audrey and her swollen eye.

It wasn’t just my life on the line here. If they caught us, we were all dead. I couldn’t let Lorne sacrifice everyone because one last jump might kill me. I wasn’t afraid to die.

“Declan?” My voice shook.

Lorne’s eyes widened.

“Yes, Ami?” Declan’s voice was wary, and I got it. But he was going to do whatever I asked.

“Play him whatever my father showed everyone.” My voice was raspy but sounded clear and confident.

“No,” Lorne said. “You didn’t want me—”

I laughed. “Apparently everyone’s seen them. You’re just one more person.”

“You sure?” Declan asked. “You got pretty mad about that earlier…”

I rolled onto my back and met Declan’s gaze. “Yeah.” A tear roll down my cheek, and Lorne caught it with his thumb.

I heard it start and I squeezed my eyes shut. I didn’t need to see it. I’d lived it.

Jason’s pervy voice filled the bridge. I heard my voice asking him to stop. I could feel his hands on me again, and then I heard the sick crunch his face made as I smashed my fist into it.

Then I heard myself yelling, begging for it to stop. Begging for Audrey to sedate me. I heard Audrey and Tyler’s fight. That had to be the first nanos session.

“Christ. Stop. Declan, stop.” Lorne’s forehead rested against mine. “You’re breaking my heart, Amihanna.”

“Please. I can’t go back there. I can’t live through all of that again.” My chin shook, and tears streamed from my eyes, but I wasn’t above begging. “I know I’m in terrible shape. I can feel it. But don’t make all of what I went through up to this point mean nothing. You can help me. Get us to my father. Please.”

His tears dripped onto my cheek, mixing with mine, and he pulled back. “Okay, but you hang in for me. I can’t lose you again.”