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  1. Also by Erica James
  2. Copyright
  3. Note to Readers
  4. Contents
  5. Chapter One
  6. Chapter Two
  7. Chapter Three
  8. Chapter Four
  9. Chapter Five
  10. Chapter Six
  11. Chapter Seven
  12. Chapter Eight
  13. Chapter Nine
  14. Chapter Ten
  15. Chapter Eleven
  16. Chapter Twelve
  17. Chapter Thirteen
  18. Chapter Fourteen
  19. Chapter Fifteen
  20. Chapter Sixteen
  21. Chapter Seventeen
  22. Chapter Eighteen
  23. Chapter Nineteen
  24. Chapter Twenty
  25. Chapter Twenty-One
  26. Chapter Twenty-Two
  27. Chapter Twenty-Three
  28. Chapter Twenty-Four
  29. Chapter Twenty-Five
  30. Chapter Twenty-Six
  31. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  32. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  33. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  34. Chapter Thirty
  35. Chapter Thirty-One
  36. Chapter Thirty-Two
  37. Chapter Thirty-Three
  38. Chapter Thirty-Four
  39. Chapter Thirty-Five
  40. Chapter Thirty-Six
  41. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  42. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  43. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  44. Chapter Forty
  45. Chapter Forty-One
  46. Chapter Forty-Two
  47. Chapter Forty-Three
  48. Chapter Forty-Four
  49. Chapter Forty-Five
  50. Chapter Forty-Six
  51. Chapter Forty-Seven
  52. Chapter Forty-Eight
  53. Chapter Forty-Nine
  54. Chapter Fifty
  55. Chapter Fifty-One
  56. Chapter Fifty-Two
  57. Chapter Fifty-Three
  58. Chapter Fifty-Four
  59. Chapter Fifty-Five
  60. Chapter Fifty-Six
  61. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  62. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  63. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  64. Chapter Sixty
  65. Acknowledgements
  66. About the Publisher

But she hadn’t done that for the simple reason she had been a coward. And worse, she hadn’t wanted to relinquish her hold of the moral high ground. Remove that and she was no better than Colin.

Except she wasn’t better than him and so when he occasionally lost control of his temper and lashed out at her, she accepted it as her punishment for her betrayal and the lies she told herself.

All of which made it sound as though their marriage had been unhappy. Which was far from the truth. Independently fuelled by guilt on both sides of the relationship, they had each made a huge effort to make things work. And so, swept along on the daily tide of family life, they had coexisted perfectly well, perhaps not as loving as some couples, but certainly better than a lot. If tenderness and passion and honesty were missing from their marriage, there had been an acceptance on Naomi’s part that, for the sake of the children, the status quo tipped the scales in favour of staying together, of keeping up the pretence.

She never allowed herself to think of what might have been if she had responded to Colin’s confession by ending their marriage on the spot and seeking a divorce. Nor did she think of what might have been if she hadn’t been already pregnant with their first child when she slept with Ellis.

What tangled lives we lead, she thought as she pushed the wheelbarrow of weeds along the brick path and added them to the compost heap. Ripping off her gardening gloves, she decided she would plant the French beans when the day had cooled down, for now she needed a drink.

Some minutes later, and with a refreshing glass of orange juice in hand, she walked down to the wooden bench seat that overlooked the beach. It was some time since she had occupied the bench, afraid that Ellis might pass by and she would have to speak to him.

That was another example of her cowardice: hiding from Ellis.

He had done just as she’d asked, given her space to decide what it was she wanted. She now knew what that was, but was worried how he might react.

When she’d finished her drink, she placed the empty glass on the ground next to the bench and closed her eyes. Before long, and without meaning to, she was drifting off to sleep, the cry of seagulls and the voices of happy children playing on the beach slowly fading into the distance.

She woke from a restful sleep to the tinny sound of far-away music playing. It was the jingling siren call of ‘Greensleeves’ coming from the ice-cream van on the jetty in the harbour. The languid tune was so very synonymous with the long, slow days of summer.

After checking her watch, she realised she had been asleep for half an hour. Time for some lunch, she thought, getting to her feet. That was when she saw Ellis walking by and when he turned and looked at her.