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  1. Also by Erica James
  2. Copyright
  3. Note to Readers
  4. Contents
  5. Chapter One
  6. Chapter Two
  7. Chapter Three
  8. Chapter Four
  9. Chapter Five
  10. Chapter Six
  11. Chapter Seven
  12. Chapter Eight
  13. Chapter Nine
  14. Chapter Ten
  15. Chapter Eleven
  16. Chapter Twelve
  17. Chapter Thirteen
  18. Chapter Fourteen
  19. Chapter Fifteen
  20. Chapter Sixteen
  21. Chapter Seventeen
  22. Chapter Eighteen
  23. Chapter Nineteen
  24. Chapter Twenty
  25. Chapter Twenty-One
  26. Chapter Twenty-Two
  27. Chapter Twenty-Three
  28. Chapter Twenty-Four
  29. Chapter Twenty-Five
  30. Chapter Twenty-Six
  31. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  32. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  33. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  34. Chapter Thirty
  35. Chapter Thirty-One
  36. Chapter Thirty-Two
  37. Chapter Thirty-Three
  38. Chapter Thirty-Four
  39. Chapter Thirty-Five
  40. Chapter Thirty-Six
  41. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  42. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  43. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  44. Chapter Forty
  45. Chapter Forty-One
  46. Chapter Forty-Two
  47. Chapter Forty-Three
  48. Chapter Forty-Four
  49. Chapter Forty-Five
  50. Chapter Forty-Six
  51. Chapter Forty-Seven
  52. Chapter Forty-Eight
  53. Chapter Forty-Nine
  54. Chapter Fifty
  55. Chapter Fifty-One
  56. Chapter Fifty-Two
  57. Chapter Fifty-Three
  58. Chapter Fifty-Four
  59. Chapter Fifty-Five
  60. Chapter Fifty-Six
  61. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  62. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  63. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  64. Chapter Sixty
  65. Acknowledgements
  66. About the Publisher

‘How could I have not known?’ she’d said to Tom. ‘How blind could I have been? All this time I’ve complained about Willow having her head in the clouds and not having a clue what was going on around her, while I was the one unable to see what was going on right under my nose!’

‘But it wasn’t going on under your nose, Martha. That’s the thing about abuse, it’s kept hidden.’ He’d then offered to drive down to be with her, just as she thought he would.

‘No,’ she’d said. ‘I’m perfectly all right.’

‘What if Rick shows up?’ he’d asked.

‘Don’t worry; Mum, Ellis and I can handle Rick. And don’t forget,’ she’d added lightly to reassure Tom that she really was okay, ‘Mum’s friend, Geraldine is here, so she’ll act as our first line of defence.’

He’d made a small attempt at laughter, but she could tell he was humouring her. ‘If you change your mind,’ he’d said, ‘or if you just want to talk, call me.’

‘I will, I promise,’ she’d said gratefully.

Now, as she pushed back the duvet and got out of bed, Martha thought how lucky she was to be married to such a kind and considerate man who would no more raise his hand to her than grow a second head.

Thank God she hadn’t been attracted to and married a carbon copy of her father. As difficult as it was to confront, the love she had felt for the man who meant so much to her was now irrevocably tainted with shame. She was unspeakably ashamed of him. He’d been a perpetrator of domestic violence who had got away with it for years and she didn’t think she would ever think well of him again.

Hearing the sound of the loo being flushed in the Jack and Jill bathroom that she shared with her sister, Martha put on her dressing gown, the one Mum always kept there for her. She then went out onto the landing and after knocking lightly on Willow’s door, she let herself in.

Willow was back in bed, sitting up and clutching her old rag doll which Mum had made for her when she was little. With the duvet pulled up almost to her chin, she looked poignantly childlike, her hair in messy plaits which she hadn’t brushed out before going to bed. The cut to her lip had formed an ugly scab now and the bruising to her cheek and eye had fanned out to spoil yet more of her face.

‘How’re you feeling?’ asked Martha, closing the door behind her and going over to sit on the edge of her sister’s bed.

‘Not so bad.’

‘Did you manage to sleep?’

‘Off and on.’

‘Me too.’

Still clutching the doll, Willow looked at Martha. ‘I’m sorry … you know … about Dad. That must have been a terrible shock for you. You were always so much closer to him than me.’

‘If I’d known the truth, then I wouldn’t have been.’ She was about to say more, that she wished Willow had confided in her all those years ago, but changed her mind. They both knew that if her sister had told her what she’d witnessed, Martha would never have believed her. She would have called her a liar and probably a lot worse. ‘I’d rather not talk about Dad, if you don’t mind,’ she said. ‘I’m more concerned about you.’