Contents ( 66)
- Also by Erica James
- Copyright
- Note to Readers
- Contents
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- Chapter Four
- Chapter Five
- Chapter Six
- Chapter Seven
- Chapter Eight
- Chapter Nine
- Chapter Ten
- Chapter Eleven
- Chapter Twelve
- Chapter Thirteen
- Chapter Fourteen
- Chapter Fifteen
- Chapter Sixteen
- Chapter Seventeen
- Chapter Eighteen
- Chapter Nineteen
- Chapter Twenty
- Chapter Twenty-One
- Chapter Twenty-Two
- Chapter Twenty-Three
- Chapter Twenty-Four
- Chapter Twenty-Five
- Chapter Twenty-Six
- Chapter Twenty-Seven
- Chapter Twenty-Eight
- Chapter Twenty-Nine
- Chapter Thirty
- Chapter Thirty-One
- Chapter Thirty-Two
- Chapter Thirty-Three
- Chapter Thirty-Four
- Chapter Thirty-Five
- Chapter Thirty-Six
- Chapter Thirty-Seven
- Chapter Thirty-Eight
- Chapter Thirty-Nine
- Chapter Forty
- Chapter Forty-One
- Chapter Forty-Two
- Chapter Forty-Three
- Chapter Forty-Four
- Chapter Forty-Five
- Chapter Forty-Six
- Chapter Forty-Seven
- Chapter Forty-Eight
- Chapter Forty-Nine
- Chapter Fifty
- Chapter Fifty-One
- Chapter Fifty-Two
- Chapter Fifty-Three
- Chapter Fifty-Four
- Chapter Fifty-Five
- Chapter Fifty-Six
- Chapter Fifty-Seven
- Chapter Fifty-Eight
- Chapter Fifty-Nine
- Chapter Sixty
- Acknowledgements
- About the Publisher
‘I doubt that. But for now, why don’t you make yourself comfortable. Do you have anything to eat or drink?’
‘I have some coffee,’ she said, gingerly lowering herself to the floor. She was still scared that the slightest movement might cause the lift to plummet and send her crashing to her death.
‘That’s good. Now I’m going to go a bit quiet for a while, is that okay with you?’
‘Yes,’ she said.
Her legs sticking out in front of her, Martha took a sip of her coffee. At the same time she rested a hand on her baby bump. ‘There’s nothing to worry about,’ she told the baby.
As if in response, the baby seemed to stretch out a leg to give her a swift kick that landed in her lower ribs.
‘Okay,’ said Martha, ‘so you don’t agree, but there’s no need to get all antsy with me. I mean, it’s not my fault I’m stuck here in this lift. Do you think I planned it?’
She kept up a steady monologue of nonsense while she drank her coffee. Martha knew that at this stage of the pregnancy, her baby could hear her voice and could react to it. The baby’s eyelids were open at twenty-five weeks too, and her brain and lungs and digestive system were formed as well, although not fully developed. She was a truly wondrous little being who regularly hiccupped inside Martha and could keep her awake with her constant fidgeting as if she were bored and looking for something to do. ‘Just like her mother,’ Tom said, ‘always on the go, always needing to be busy.’
Family lore had it that Martha had been a fractiously fidgety baby. ‘You came out of the womb, kicking and screaming and ready to pick a fight,’ Dad had always joked. ‘There you were, your little fists tightly clenched, ready to fight your corner.’
Mum was a little more generous with her version of Martha’s baby years, explaining that she was a typical first child and that they, as parents, were learning on the job and didn’t always get it right. ‘You probably picked up on our lack of confidence,’ Mum said, ‘and by the time Willow came along, we felt we knew what we were doing and didn’t worry so much, so that made her less anxious too.’
Out of the two of them, Martha was happy to concede that Tom would be the more patient parent. She would always be impatient for the next phase, just as she had been impatient to conceive. Now she was impatient for the day when she would go into labour.
Just not today, she thought. Giving birth in a lift with only Andy’s disembodied voice to help was not what she wanted. Not when her baby was too small to be born now … not when her daughter’s chances of survival were so slim.
No sooner had she pushed this panicky thought from her mind, than her stomach tightened, and with such force, she gasped.