Back Man Down
Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Other books by James Goodhand
  4. Dedication
  5. Four’s a Crowd
  6. That Friday Feeling
  7. Work
  8. Customer Service
  9. Starting Over
  10. Sweet Seventeen
  11. Burn, Baby, Burn
  12. A Turn
  13. Go-Between
  14. Joyride
  15. In
  16. Not a Date
  17. Taken Down
  18. Killing Time
  19. Reality
  20. The Long Wait
  21. The Other Side
  22. Dropping In
  23. In the Dark
  24. Blind Alley
  25. Showtime
  26. Straight Through
  27. What Develops
  28. Last Lesson
  29. House of Horrors
  30. Room with a View
  31. Party’s Over
  32. At Sea
  33. Fireworks
  34. The Turning of Tables
  35. Home Time
  36. Our Little Chats
  37. Out of the Blue?
  38. No Capes
  39. Holding On
  40. Salvage
  41. The End
  42. On a Promise
  43. Disco Inferno
  44. Lockdown
  45. Will Parks’ Big Moment
  46. The Calm
  47. Last Request
  48. The Storm
  49. All Change
  50. A Narrow Escape
  51. An Inconvenient Delay
  52. No More Fighting
  53. Level Crossing
  54. The Beginning
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Resources
  57. Read more
  58. Read more
  59. 5.11 a.m.
  60. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘This your nanna?’ April asks, picking up the framed photo on Will’s bedside table. It’s a picture from two years ago, Nain and Will on a day trip to London, on the steps of the Tate Modern.

What sort of seventeen-year-old has a picture of his nan by his bed? Will thinks. ‘That’s her, yeah.’

‘She looks great. Nice clothes, cool hair. Hope I look like that when I’m her age. How’s she doing, Will?’

‘OK. No change.’ He feels a stab of guilt that he’s been so occupied these past twenty-four hours that he’s forgotten to allow his worries about her to dominate his thoughts as they usually do when she’s been hospitalized. Nonetheless, he’s been texting his mum every couple of hours, so he knows the situation hasn’t worsened.

April gently repositions the photo. ‘What’s wrong with her, Will, if you don’t mind me asking?’

‘Parkinson’s. She’s a fighter, though.’

‘I’m sure. She’s lucky to have you, though. Bet she knows it, too.’

Will smiles. For a moment, this feels a tiny bit less like two worlds colliding. Will starts to scoot around the floor, gathering up clothes and socks and pants.

‘Chill, Will! My room’s much messier than this.’

He tosses the bundle on to his mattress and wraps it in his duvet, scanning under the bed for any crumpled tissues that might have escaped his morning tidy-up.

‘So cool,’ she says, moving from his oversubscribed bookcase, studying the walls now and stroking her fingers on the glass fragments of Nain’s mosaic. ‘Your dog, yeah? Beppo?’

Will’s discomfort returns full force. Has Danny told her about Beppo? What an arsehole.

‘It is Beppo, right?’ she asks. ‘Isn’t that what it says on the lead? The little silver disc?’

‘Yes! His lead, yes!’

‘Is he not here?’

‘He’s out the back,’ Will says, a statement that’s not entirely untrue.

She drops her school bag on to his bed. ‘I’ve never been in a boy’s room where there are posters of books on the walls,’ she says, smiling as she reads and rereads the quote from The Catcher in the Rye.

It’s so weird to Will, hearing her in this room, the place where so much of his time is given over to thinking about her. This is the window he looks at the night sky from and wonders where she is, and if perhaps she’s looking at it too. This is the bed where he greets sleep with a certain relish, knowing he might get lucky and dream about her. There are the old records, so many of their lyrics finding new meaning in these recent weeks. And now she’s here. Her voice is in here. Her smell is in here.

‘Fuck!’ April says, making Will jump. ‘I didn’t know you had these! This is bloody perfect!’

‘The decks?’