Back Man Down
Chapters (60)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Other books by James Goodhand
  4. Dedication
  5. Four’s a Crowd
  6. That Friday Feeling
  7. Work
  8. Customer Service
  9. Starting Over
  10. Sweet Seventeen
  11. Burn, Baby, Burn
  12. A Turn
  13. Go-Between
  14. Joyride
  15. In
  16. Not a Date
  17. Taken Down
  18. Killing Time
  19. Reality
  20. The Long Wait
  21. The Other Side
  22. Dropping In
  23. In the Dark
  24. Blind Alley
  25. Showtime
  26. Straight Through
  27. What Develops
  28. Last Lesson
  29. House of Horrors
  30. Room with a View
  31. Party’s Over
  32. At Sea
  33. Fireworks
  34. The Turning of Tables
  35. Home Time
  36. Our Little Chats
  37. Out of the Blue?
  38. No Capes
  39. Holding On
  40. Salvage
  41. The End
  42. On a Promise
  43. Disco Inferno
  44. Lockdown
  45. Will Parks’ Big Moment
  46. The Calm
  47. Last Request
  48. The Storm
  49. All Change
  50. A Narrow Escape
  51. An Inconvenient Delay
  52. No More Fighting
  53. Level Crossing
  54. The Beginning
  55. Acknowledgements
  56. Resources
  57. Read more
  58. Read more
  59. 5.11 a.m.
  60. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

‘I’m OK. It’s nice to be of use.’

‘Thank you.’ And Will sat with her and talked about school, about his fundraising efforts for the library, about the girl he likes. She was easy to talk to. She understood what was in the spaces where he said nothing.

The party’s in full swing now. Will hasn’t seen Alfie for a while, although for once there’s no pang of jealousy at the thought of him having fun with other people. Whether he’s been gone ten minutes or an hour it’s hard to tell – the evening seems somehow jumbled. And in any case, things that are now in the past feel oddly irrelevant, much as the future does. He hears someone utter the word tomorrow and he’s struck by what a distant, abstract concept that is. It’s now that really matters, Will is thinking. This unit of time is more valuable than any before or after.

An image pops up, in his fizzing brain, of a massive zip, weaving from side to side like a ski run. And everyone’s standing on the slider as it zooms along, locking the separate sides of the zip together. That’s us, Will thinks, pulling all the possibilities together into one solid track – the past behind us, locked together, the future waiting for the now to get to it, to pull all the possibilities into line. There we all are, in the now, at the very frontier where all that’s possible is gathered in, reduced to one unarguable history. And the image melts away, and Will can’t quite remember what it was he was thinking about.

He steps out on to the deck, gazing around for more people who he can drop into effortless conversation with, as he’s been doing inside. A DJ pumps out house music. Will grooves to the beat as he wades through a haze of weed smoke, which flashes blue and purple in the disco lights.

‘Hey, big man,’ a voice says.

‘Hey,’ Will replies, his voice so warm he barely recognizes it as his own. He looks the guy up and down. He’s eighteen or nineteen, smooth-skinned, hair set in a quiff. Maybe he’s come as James Dean. Or perhaps that’s just how he dresses.

He’s so close his cheek almost rests on Will’s shoulder blade. ‘There’s a steam room,’ he says. ‘By the pool.’

Will forces himself to focus. The pool is well subscribed now, the surface foaming as bodies dance and writhe against each other. Beyond, there’s a log cabin, glowing in UV light. ‘Right.’

‘Want to join us?’ the guy asks. A step behind him stands a girl with jet black hair, a stripe on the left side of her head shaved to skin. There’s a faraway look in her watery blue eyes.

‘Are you guys together?’ Will asks.