Back Looking
Chapters (36)
  1. Cover
  2. Acknowledgments
  3. Prologue
  4. Book One: Darren
  5. first date
  6. coffee date
  7. the cleanup
  8. nature retreat
  9. boundaries
  10. square one
  11. the olive branch
  12. Book Two: Nadia
  13. curious
  14. testing the waters
  15. first kiss
  16. routines
  17. hooky
  18. first time
  19. flirting
  20. movie night
  21. connecting
  22. Book Three: Jourdan
  23. appointment
  24. errands
  25. normal shit
  26. on my knees (emotionally) (and sexually)
  27. favor
  28. making a date
  29. the right look
  30. nerves
  31. careful
  32. massage
  33. all together now
  34. midnight
  35. epilogue
  36. Other books by Katrina Jackson

I hear the sound of a door closing on the other end of the line. I swear I’d almost forgotten that Nadia was on the phone, and that realization sobers me right up. I sit back in my chair, run my hands over my head, and close my eyes. This was a mistake.

“Not today,” Nadia says breathlessly. “This is a lot for Darren.”

“Fuck, yeah, it is,” I mumble.

“Oh, poor baby,” Jourdan says. I think she’s sincere, but who fucking knows? I hear her chair scrape against the concrete.

When I open my eyes, she’s sauntering around the table toward me. There’s a wet circle on her shirt with a hard nipple at the center. It’s like her breasts are winking at me. Every muscle in my body is pulsing with desire. I sit back in my chair. I know what she’s going to do before she does it, and fuck me, I want to make it easier for her.

“I’m sitting in his lap,” Jourdan announces to my wife as she lowers her ass onto my aching groin.

I grunt when she settles her full weight on my dick. “Fuck.”

“He’s hard.”

Nadia moans but doesn’t reply to this turn of events otherwise, as if she wants to let this moment between the two of us unfold however we like. Or she’s too busy masturbating in her office.

Jourdan wiggles on top of me, getting comfortable, driving me wild. “Do I feel good, Darren?”

“Yes,” I groan.

She’s holding my phone in her right hand between our mouths. Her left hand smooths over the crown of my bald head. “Can I kiss him? I bet he’s a good kisser.”

My lips part, and my gaze shifts to her mouth. Her lips are glossy, and her eyes are hooded. She’s making soft circles on my head. I can’t look away from her mouth. I don’t know who starts to move forward first. All I know is that we drift toward one another slowly as if we want to savor each disappearing centimeter between us, as if this is a moment we both know we need to remember.

Time is slow and fast all at once, and soon enough, I can taste Jourdan’s coffee on my lips. I can hear her ragged breaths like a storm coming, and my heart is galloping toward destruction.

We’re so close that it’s honestly hard to tell if Nadia says “Yes,” before or after my lips touch Jourdan’s, but it’s definitely before Jourdan slips her tongue into my mouth.

Kissing Jourdan is different in every way from kissing Nadia.

There’s a familiarity with my wife that’s hard to describe.