Chapters (33)
- Cover
- About the Author
- By the same author
- Dedication
- Part One
- 1. May
- 2. May
- 3. June
- Part Two
- 4. July
- 5. August
- 6. October
- Part Three
- 7. October The Night After the Party
- 8. November Three Weeks After Ash’s Death
- 9. November
- Part Four
- 10. November
- 11. November
- 12. November
- Part Five
- 13. November
- 14. November
- 15. March
- Part Six
- 16. April
- 17. April
- 18. April – Same Day
- 19. May
- 20. December
- Epilogue
- Acknowledgements
- THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING
Eve calls Izzy back to the table for the maths session. Izzy and Poppy sit side by side, so close they are almost touching; her daughter’s face looks soft with happiness. Eve wants to tell her to be careful, hold back a little, she’s been hurt so often. Blake stares across the table at Izzy, looks down when he senses Eve’s gaze, then looks up again; Izzy exchanges little glances with Poppy. After half an hour, Blake stops writing and puts down his pen. Poppy looks out of the window towards the trees.
‘Break time!’ Eve says quickly.
They run into the garden like puppies off a leash, Ash stumbling to catch up. Eve watches from the door, she mustn’t interfere. This is what she’d hoped for, all the children playing together; after half an hour she calls them back for painting, then at the end of the morning they rush outside again. As Eve is clearing up paint pots and washing brushes, fingernails tap against the window like the rattle of little stones; Melissa arriving early. Eve looks up, smiles and waves. Few people call in at the house; it’s set far back from the road, the grandeur is daunting. Her father had liked the peace; the idea that his children might feel lonely had never occurred to him. She takes a tray outside and they sit on the grass, sipping coffee. Melly’s red MG is parked in the drive, the hood down.
‘I know what you’re thinking,’ Melly says, catching her glance. ‘It’s lazy of us not to walk, but Paul gives Izzy lifts all the time, she’s got used to it. He spoils that child.’
The air is lime-sharp with the scent of grass. The noise of Igor mowing the meadow merges with the children’s voices from the wood. Melissa shades her eyes, staring across the garden. ‘Listen to them,’ she says wistfully. ‘A whole family of children having fun.’
‘A bigger one than I’d planned for, counting Charley and my little ones – they’re here more than I thought they would be. I don’t teach them, but they join in the games afterwards.’ Eve touches her arm. ‘I should charge you less; that’s only fair.’
‘You don’t owe me a penny. Izzy’s happy, she adores everyone. I think it helps, having the younger ones around. Paul says her homework’s improved. He checks it every night.’ She tightens the scarf around her neck. ‘I’m not allowed.’
‘He does the homework?’ Eve raises her eyebrows. ‘Gosh, the perfect husband.’
Melly shakes her head, smiling faintly; her eyes glisten.
The children appear soon after that, shrieking as they scatter across the lawn, chased by Izzy. Ash tumbles into his mother’s lap, laughing hysterically. Izzy stops in her tracks when she sees her mother, then stalks off to wait in the car.