Back Little Friends
Chapters (33)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. By the same author
  4. Dedication
  5. Part One
  6. 1. May
  7. 2. May
  8. 3. June
  9. Part Two
  10. 4. July
  11. 5. August
  12. 6. October
  13. Part Three
  14. 7. October The Night After the Party
  15. 8. November Three Weeks After Ash’s Death
  16. 9. November
  17. Part Four
  18. 10. November
  19. 11. November
  20. 12. November
  21. Part Five
  22. 13. November
  23. 14. November
  24. 15. March
  25. Part Six
  26. 16. April
  27. 17. April
  28. 18. April – Same Day
  29. 19. May
  30. 20. December
  31. Epilogue
  32. Acknowledgements
  33. THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING

Grace leaves the Co-op and jogs the few streets home. Sleet is falling, the air is turning colder, there’s a chilly wind. A storm has been forecast, the shop manager told her, Storm Adelina. Hurry home, snow is on the way. She is icy by the time she reaches the flat, slamming the door behind her. Much of the day has been spent filling bags with mince pies and frozen stuffing, customers stocking up for Christmas in advance. Her face feels stiff from smiling. She stands in the kitchen boiling the kettle for tea, and downs it quickly. She must hurry. She promised Melly she would bring fresh laundry to Eve’s and stay for supper, though it’s time they stopped going over so often. Eve’s family needs a chance to grieve in peace; she needs time with hers. She takes sheets from the airing cupboard and kneels down to fill a suitcase with them. She’s hardly talked to Charley or Blake despite changing jobs; in fact, they’ve talked even less. The children have been tired at night and silent at mealtimes, evasive with their answers as if their real life was somewhere else. They are all grieving, but that should be a time to draw closer, not move further away. They didn’t ask her to change jobs, but all the same, the disappointment stings; nothing has turned out as she’d expected. She collects towels, stuffing them into Martin’s old rucksack. They can talk tonight after they’ve all come home, she could make hot chocolate, and sit on their beds for a while; listen to whatever they might want to say. Martin will be with her and afterwards they’ll be together, curled on the sofa. It seems a long time since they’ve done that. They’re busy, she knows that: his tutorials, her hours, both of them supporting Eve’s family. Tutoring turns out to suit him; the agency calls most days, he’s earning decent money but she’s missed him, missed the old closeness. She wants to see him suddenly, fiercely. She needs to feel his arms around her. She throws the case and rucksack into the car and drives fast through the sleet. On arrival at Eve’s, she hurries up the drive with her load, the gravel crunching under her feet. Sleet blows hard into her face; the evening has darkened. Igor’s bulky figure is just visible, retreating down the path to his home.