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Chapters (103)
  1. Title Page
  2. Contents
  3. Dedication
  4. Epigraph
  5. Thursday
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. Chapter 8
  14. Chapter 9
  15. Chapter 10
  16. Friday
  17. Chapter 11
  18. Saturday
  19. Chapter 12
  20. Chapter 13
  21. Chapter 14
  22. Chapter 15
  23. Chapter 16
  24. Chapter 17
  25. Chapter 18
  26. Chapter 19
  27. Sunday
  28. Chapter 20
  29. Chapter 21
  30. Chapter 22
  31. Chapter 23
  32. Chapter 24
  33. Chapter 25
  34. Chapter 26
  35. Monday
  36. Chapter 27
  37. Chapter 28
  38. Chapter 29
  39. Chapter 30
  40. Chapter 31
  41. Chapter 32
  42. Chapter 33
  43. Chapter 34
  44. Chapter 35
  45. Tuesday
  46. Chapter 36
  47. Chapter 37
  48. Chapter 38
  49. Chapter 39
  50. Chapter 40
  51. Chapter 41
  52. Chapter 42
  53. Chapter 43
  54. Chapter 44
  55. Chapter 45
  56. Chapter 46
  57. Chapter 47
  58. Chapter 48
  59. Chapter 49
  60. Wednesday
  61. Chapter 50
  62. Chapter 51
  63. Chapter 52
  64. Chapter 53
  65. Chapter 54
  66. Chapter 55
  67. Chapter 56
  68. Chapter 57
  69. Chapter 58
  70. Chapter 59
  71. Chapter 60
  72. Thursday
  73. Chapter 61
  74. Chapter 62
  75. Chapter 63
  76. Chapter 64
  77. Chapter 65
  78. Chapter 66
  79. Chapter 67
  80. Chapter 68
  81. Chapter 69
  82. Chapter 70
  83. Friday
  84. Chapter 71
  85. Chapter 72
  86. Chapter 73
  87. Chapter 74
  88. Chapter 75
  89. Chapter 76
  90. Chapter 77
  91. Chapter 78
  92. Chapter 79
  93. Chapter 80
  94. Chapter 81
  95. Chapter 82
  96. Chapter 83
  97. Chapter 84
  98. Three Months Later
  99. Chapter 85
  100. A message from TM Logan
  101. Acknowledgements
  102. About the Author
  103. Copyright

‘I can hardly remember when Alice was that age,’ Beth said, wrapped up in a cream cashmere overcoat against the October chill. ‘It’s all a bit of a blur when they’re young, isn’t it? Up in the morning, breakfast, school run, play, story time, bedtime. Sometimes I wish I’d stopped to appreciate her a bit more when she was small, but at the time you don’t realise it. You just think it will last forever.’

‘We all do what we have to do. Alice is a good kid, you should be proud of her.’

‘Oh, I am proud. More than I can put into words. I just wish sometimes I could turn the clock back to when she was little, things seemed so much less complicated then.’

We both watched as the small boy ran round to the steps at the foot of the slide and began climbing again.

‘How are you holding up, Beth?’ I said.

She shrugged.

‘Oh, you know. Not terribly well, if I’m honest.’

She listened in silence as I told her about the solicitor’s letter, then about my close encounter with Ben at Kingsway Mall, and my previous night’s interview with the police. There was uncertainty in her eyes. Not fear – I think we were past that – but maybe she was still trying to decide whether I could be completely trusted.

‘The police seem to be focusing a lot of their energies on you,’ she said.

‘Your husband’s got them dancing to his tune.’

‘It seems impossible to think that he could carry this on for so long.’

‘He’s only ever really cared about himself, though, hasn’t he?’

‘That’s not true,’ she said, her voice quiet. ‘Not always. He was very sweet when we first met, when Alice was born.’

‘The last few years, though?’

She didn’t answer. Instead, she looked away from me and started to cry, helpless tears rolling down her cheeks. She was utterly unguarded about it and I thought about how far she had fallen, and how fast.

‘It’s going to be OK, Beth,’ I said. ‘We’ll figure it out. Together.’

She produced a wadded tissue from her sleeve and wiped away her tears.

‘It’s stupid,’ she sniffed. ‘My spirituality has always taught me that everything turns out OK in the end, that things work their way back to a kind of equilibrium. Ying and yang. But I don’t know if that’s true any more. I think sometimes things go wrong and they just stay wrong, and there’s nothing we can do to change it.’

‘I don’t believe that, Beth.’

She gave a sad little laugh.

‘That’s a bit like saying you don’t believe in gravity, Joe – it doesn’t change the fact that it exists.’

‘You know, we could be a team, me and you.’

‘A team?’