Chapters (205)
- Title Page
- A Dutiful Daughter
- Tamuning
- Rides to St. Cletus
- Sh-sh
- Evaporate
- Monday’s List
- Techa
- Smart Boy
- House of Plastic
- Sneaky
- Lunchtime at St. Cletus
- A Meal of Words
- Wanted: One Knock-Knock Joke
- Magic Man
- Dishes
- Delia’s New Haircut
- Sister Agnes and Sister Rachel
- List Maker
- My Mother’s Gifts
- A Charitable Act
- List of Confessions
- Making Time
- Things to Do That Might Help Us Return to Malesso
- Teacher for the Day
- Falling into Water
- Phone Call
- No Crying Over Spilled Milk
- Return to Malesso
- Malesso
- Home
- List for Vendors
- A Place at the Table
- My Room
- First Night
- First Morning List
- First Morning Home
- No-Legend Death
- Cocos Island
- Roman
- Teresita
- Lorenzo, King of the Cockfighters
- The Fish Artist
- The Way It Was Before
- Second Night
- Sleepy Days, Sleepless Night
- Lost Birds
- Golai HagunSune
- Mary Kelly
- Eyebrow talk
- New Girl Day
- An Admirer
- Suruhana
- Bingo and Cockfights
- Not Now
- Breakfast of Champions
- When Frank Almost Downed
- Where Was She?
- The Dream
- Robbed
- Pictures
- Chicken Noodle Soup
- God’s Instrument
- Playing Hooky
- Another Visitor
- Musical Chairs
- Impostor
- No-show
- Olivia’s Crab
- Don’t You Remember?
- Ana, Who Likes Animal Crackers, Peanut Butter, and Comics
- Taotaomo’na
- Evening Watch
- The Marks on Frank’s Wall
- A Stranger in the House
- Not a Rose
- Is He the One?
- Ana Cruz Gives Birth
- Watch Me
- Watching Olivia Dance Outside the Cafeteria
- Closed Docs
- A Different Hat
- It’s a Girl
- Parents Night
- Full Moon
- Legend of Santa Marian Kamalen
- Nightly Ritual
- Gone
- The Christening of Carmella Iglesias Martina Cruz Flores
- Auntie Bernadette’s Baby Fiesta
- A Proposal
- Happily Ever After
- Collecting in the Jungle
- Latte Stones
- Mind Your Own Business
- Shopping Day
- Elvis Lives at the Hard Rock Cafe
- Fiesta Queen
- A Bridge of Words
- The Blue Fabric
- Model Mother
- Searching for Frank
- Inventory
- Roman’s Tickets
- The Blue Dress
- The Boy Who Likens to Blend
- My Essay
- My Family’s Trip to Disneyland
- Bet
- An Unwelcome Visitor
- Auntie Bernadette to the Rescue
- This Week’s List for Vendors
- Fittings
- Ticket Sellers
- Scars
- Bikini Blues
- Green-eyed Monster
- Second Thoughts
- List for Olivia
- A Different Island
- Bathing Suit Switch
- A Thousand Miles Away
- No Tom Cruise
- The Power of Chocolate
- Good-bye
- Secrets
- Breaking Up
- Nice Girls
- Swimming
- Preparations
- Sorry
- Surprises
- List for Fiesta Preparations
- Morning of the Pageant
- The Legend of Sirena
- Someone Else
- Primping
- A Familiar Face
- Queen
- Queen’s Ball
- Cha-cha
- The Great Escape
- Cockfight
- Dance with Me
- Food and Family
- Fiesta
- I Hat
- Who Knew?
- Time
- Bleach
- Clean State
- Unraveling
- The Morning After
- My Fault
- Back to School
- Do Not Enter
- Walk This Way
- Introductions
- Tick Tock
- No Crayons
- Sticks and Stones
- Mistaken Identity
- Show-and-tell
- Confession
- Talking
- Steps
- Consequences
- Empty
- Puppet Show
- A Gentle Reminder
- Monday, Q & A with Ed
- Thief
- No Punishment
- Frank’s Hospital Room
- First Visit
- Missing One Ukulele
- Exposed
- Focal Point
- Sleep
- Expectations
- Open
- Sober
- Say His Name
- A True Love Story
- Good
- Growing
- Matthew Kolby Johnson
- List to Prepare for Diving Team Tryouts
- Tryouts
- Plunge
- Repeat, Please
- Boiling Water
- A Chance
- Fly
- Growing Up
- Golai Hagun Sune
- The Gift
- Author’s Note
- Acknowledgments
- Also by Kimberly Willis Holt
- About the Author
- GO FISH
- Teaser chapter
- Notes
- Copyright Page
My writing is like making gumbo—a little of this, a little of that mixed together. Some of those people were inspired by bits of people whom I met on the island; many details I made up. The oddest thing is, after spending so much time with the story, I couldn’t tell you what is true and what isn’t. I like to think the best fiction becomes its own truth.
You thank many people in your acknowledgments. What kind of preparation did you do to write this book?
Six months after the trip to Guam during which I visited the schools, I had to return to do research. I spoke to many people on the island, spent time in the library, and tried to soak up the setting. Later, I depended greatly on several people for answers via e-mail. Because suicide and self-mutilation were part of the story, I interviewed the director of the suicide crisis center in Amarillo, Texas, as well as making contact with a Guam crisis center counselor.
Do you like to get a lot of feedback as you write?
My daughter is the only person allowed to read (or I should say hear) my first drafts. I try not to let anyone else read anything earlier than the seventh draft. The reason is that I’m still figuring out the story and the characters in early drafts. I don’t want other people to influence me at that organic stage.
How long does it take you to write a book?
I’ll give the answer that I heard Bruce Coville give: all my life. Technically, it takes about one year to two years, but how can you discount a writer’s entire life experience? That is truly a part of every story.
Any advice for writers who have great story ideas but just can’t seem to get them down on paper?
If you are meant to be a writer, you will put it down on paper even if it means you have to write a lousy first draft. If not, maybe you aren’t meant to write that story. Or maybe it’s not the right time to write that story. Or maybe you are meant to do something else.
As a writer, what is your greatest fear?
Boring the reader.
Isabel must grow up fast in this story and seems exceptionally mature for her age. Why did you want to tell the story from her perspective?
Isabel is a firstborn child, as am I. But I didn’t choose to tell it from her point of view. She chose me.
In response to a loved one’s suicide, are there typical stages a person goes through?