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Contents (41)
  1. Chapter One Atlas
  2. Chapter Two Lily
  3. Chapter Three Atlas
  4. Chapter Four Lily
  5. Chapter Five Atlas
  6. Chapter Six Lily
  7. Chapter Seven Atlas
  8. Chapter Eight Lily
  9. Chapter Nine Atlas
  10. Chapter Ten Lily
  11. Chapter Eleven Atlas
  12. Chapter Twelve Lily
  13. Chapter Thirteen Atlas
  14. Chapter Fourteen Lily
  15. Chapter Fifteen Atlas
  16. Chapter Sixteen Lily
  17. Chapter Seventeen Atlas
  18. Chapter Eighteen Lily
  19. Chapter Nineteen Atlas
  20. Chapter Twenty Lily
  21. Chapter Twenty-One Atlas
  22. Chapter Twenty-Two Lily
  23. Chapter Twenty-Three Atlas
  24. Chapter Twenty-Four Lily
  25. Chapter Twenty-Five Atlas
  26. Chapter Twenty-Six Lily
  27. Chapter Twenty-Seven Atlas
  28. Chapter Twenty-Eight Lily
  29. Chapter Twenty-Nine Atlas
  30. Chapter Thirty Lily
  31. Chapter Thirty-One Atlas
  32. Chapter Thirty-Two Lily
  33. Chapter Thirty-Three Atlas
  34. Chapter Thirty-Four Lily
  35. Chapter Thirty-Five Atlas
  36. Chapter Thirty-Six Lily
  37. Chapter Thirty-Seven Atlas
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. About the Author
  40. Also by Colleen Hoover
  41. Table of Contents

When Ryle reaches the front door of the building, he spins around and stabs me with a sharp glare. “I am a neurosurgeon. You work with flowers, Lily. Remember that before your lawyer does anything stupid to threaten my career. I pay for that fucking apartment you live in.” His threat is punctuated by his hands slamming open the door.

Lucy is the one to lock it after he finally leaves because I’m frozen from the impact of that last insult. She walks back to me and pulls me in for a sympathetic hug.

I realize in this moment that the hardest part about ending an abusive relationship is that you aren’t necessarily putting an end to the bad moments. The bad moments still rear their ugly heads every now and then. When you end an abusive relationship, it’s the good moments you put an end to.

In our marriage, the few terrifying incidents were blanketed by so many good ones, but now that our marriage is over, the blanket has lifted and all I’m left with are the worst pieces of him. Where our marriage was once full of heart and flesh that cushioned the skeleton, all that’s left is the skeleton now. Sharp, bony edges that slice right through me.

“You okay?” Lucy asks, smoothing her hands down my hair.

I nod. “Yeah, but… did it seem like he left here with a purpose? Like he was going somewhere else?”

Lucy’s eyes scan the door again. “Yeah, he peeled out of the parking lot pretty fast. Maybe you should warn Atlas.”

I immediately grab for my phone and call him.

Chapter Twenty-Seven Atlas

It’s only been half an hour since I checked my phone, so I’m alarmed when I see several missed calls and three texts from Lily.

Please call me.

I’m okay but Ryle is angry.

Did he show up there? Atlas, please call me.

Shit.

“Darin, can you take over?”

Darin moves to finish plating for me, and I immediately walk to my office and call her. Her phone goes straight to voice mail. I try her again. Nothing.

I’m preparing to head out back to my car when my phone finally rings. I answer immediately with, “Are you okay?”

“I’m fine,” she says.

I stop rushing toward the door and lean my shoulder into a wall. I release a breath, my heart rate plummeting back to normal.

It sounds like she’s driving. “I’m going to pick up Emmy. I just wanted to warn you that he’s angry. I was worried he might show up there.”

“Thanks for the warning. You sure you’re okay?”

“Yes. Call me when you get home. I don’t care how late it is.”

Ryle bursts through the kitchen doors in the middle of her sentence. He makes enough of a ruckus that everyone notices and pauses what they’re doing. Derek, my head waiter, is right behind Ryle.

“I said I would get him,” Derek is saying to Ryle. Derek looks at me and throws up his hands to let me know he tried to prevent the intrusion.