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Contents ( 41)
  1. Chapter One Atlas
  2. Chapter Two Lily
  3. Chapter Three Atlas
  4. Chapter Four Lily
  5. Chapter Five Atlas
  6. Chapter Six Lily
  7. Chapter Seven Atlas
  8. Chapter Eight Lily
  9. Chapter Nine Atlas
  10. Chapter Ten Lily
  11. Chapter Eleven Atlas
  12. Chapter Twelve Lily
  13. Chapter Thirteen Atlas
  14. Chapter Fourteen Lily
  15. Chapter Fifteen Atlas
  16. Chapter Sixteen Lily
  17. Chapter Seventeen Atlas
  18. Chapter Eighteen Lily
  19. Chapter Nineteen Atlas
  20. Chapter Twenty Lily
  21. Chapter Twenty-One Atlas
  22. Chapter Twenty-Two Lily
  23. Chapter Twenty-Three Atlas
  24. Chapter Twenty-Four Lily
  25. Chapter Twenty-Five Atlas
  26. Chapter Twenty-Six Lily
  27. Chapter Twenty-Seven Atlas
  28. Chapter Twenty-Eight Lily
  29. Chapter Twenty-Nine Atlas
  30. Chapter Thirty Lily
  31. Chapter Thirty-One Atlas
  32. Chapter Thirty-Two Lily
  33. Chapter Thirty-Three Atlas
  34. Chapter Thirty-Four Lily
  35. Chapter Thirty-Five Atlas
  36. Chapter Thirty-Six Lily
  37. Chapter Thirty-Seven Atlas
  38. Acknowledgments
  39. About the Author
  40. Also by Colleen Hoover
  41. Table of Contents

I can see Ryle’s left hand grip the edge of the counter. He squeezes it, and the muscles in his arm flex. “Please. It won’t take long.”

I look at Lucy. “Wait for me to lock up?” She gives me a reassuring nod, so I turn on my heels and walk to my office. I can hear him right behind me. I fold my arms over my chest and suck in a breath before I can face him.

I’m so sick of his remorse. I want to wipe that stupid frown off his face, I’m so angry.

“I’m sorry.” He runs a hand through his hair and winces, coming closer. “I had too much to drink at an event last night and…”

I say nothing.

“I don’t even remember sending those texts, Lily.”

I still say nothing. He begins to fidget, growing uncomfortable in my silent anger. He slides his hands into his pockets and stares at his feet. “Did you tell Allysa?”

I don’t answer that question. If anything, it infuriates me even more. He’s worried what his sister will think of him more than what kind of damage he’s doing to me? “No, but I told a lawyer.” I’m lying, but it’ll be the truth as soon as he leaves this building. From this point forward, I’m documenting everything he does to me. Atlas is right. Ryle looks perfect on paper, and if he’s going to continue with abusive tactics, I need to protect myself and Emerson.

Ryle’s eyes slowly journey to mine. “You what?”

“I sent them to my lawyer.”

“Why would you do that?”

“Seriously? You pinned me against a door on Sunday, and then you sent me threatening texts in the middle of the night. I have done nothing to deserve this, Ryle!”

He pulls his hands from his pockets and squeezes the back of his neck as he spins to face the other direction. He stretches his back while he sucks in a breath. He seems to be holding that breath in while he silently counts in an attempt to subdue the anger building in him.

We both know how those techniques have worked in the past.

When he turns around, the remorse is gone. “You don’t see the pattern, here? Are you really that blind?”

Oh, I definitely see a pattern, but I think we’re looking at different ones.

“We’ve been fine for a year, Lily. We didn’t have a single issue until he showed back up. Now we’re fighting all the time, and you’re getting lawyers involved?” He looks like he wants to punch the air.

“Stop blaming your behavior on other people, Ryle!”

“Stop ignoring the common fucking denominator for all of our problems, Lily!”

Lucy appears in the doorway of my office. She looks from me to Ryle, and then back to me. “Are you okay?”

Ryle lets out an exasperated laugh. “She’s fine,” he says, irritated. Ryle walks toward the door, and Lucy has to press herself against the doorframe to avoid being bumped into. “A fucking lawyer,” I hear him mutter. “Let me take one guess as to whose idea that was.” Ryle is walking toward the door like he’s on a mission. Lucy and I both exit my office, most likely for the same reason. To lock him out once he exits the shop.