Chapters (49)
- Cover
- CHARLOTTE LEVIN
- Dedication page
- Epigraph page
- They all stared …
- My darling Samuel …
- I often think …
- We never talked …
- The next morning …
- For the remainder …
- My weekend consisted …
- I made it …
- You buzzed me …
- For the next …
- I was still …
- London. A city …
- It’s impossible to …
- It had been …
- It wasn’t the …
- I watched a …
- From that point …
- Edward’s flat was …
- It was the …
- By the time …
- Everything changed after …
- ‘Is that Constance …
- No longer the …
- Knowing Fiona had …
- The next day …
- For the next …
- The whole weekend …
- ‘On the day …
- You were on …
- I found myself …
- I rocked back …
- The sweating, the …
- The small hipster …
- According to Dale, …
- The pollen was …
- Which brings us …
- He opened the …
- Exiting High Street …
- Then there was …
- I can’t recall …
- So there it …
- My beautiful Constance …
- Acknowledgements
- If I Can’t Have You
- If I Can’t Have You
Caroline Hulse, author of Like a House on Fire
‘OMG – just finished #IfICantHaveYou – what a flipping book! I can’t put into words how FANTASTIC it is! Brava. My book of 2020!’
Vic Watson, Noir at the Bar host
‘Truly original. Sad, funny, dark, with a take on loneliness and yearning that feels new in fiction. This is down to the terrific writing’
Hayley Webster
‘Dark and compelling with a flawed and funny heroine you can’t help rooting for’
Waitrose Magazine
‘Blackly comic, heart-rendingly sad . . . a brilliant debut novel’
Best
‘You’ll be addicted to this witty story of obsession and loneliness’
Real People
‘[A] darkly comic and at times creepy novel’
Woman’s Weekly
If I Can’t Have You
Charlotte Levin has been shortlisted for the Andrea Badenoch Award, part of the Northern Writers’ Awards, and for the Mslexia Short Story Competition. Charlotte lives in Manchester and If I Can’t Have You is her first novel.