I tell him that if we want to make this work, then we need to go over some stuff. It’s the only thing that keeps me from feeling like a girl in a classic movie, falling for the man who kidnaps her or holds her down. I look him in the eyes and say there can’t be any apologies, because I don’t want to hear them, but we need to talk about the things the Angels would never let us.

The nest whines as we step into the atrium. Pieces of the front door lie scattered at the mouth of the sanctuary, spread out across the carpet and front porch. The smell of rot isn’t as bad as it had been. The bodies have all been moved. I look to Theo with a frown.

“The Grace wanted them,” Theo says in explanation. In the pale moonlight coming through the stained glass windows, I try to find body parts that weren’t part of the Grace before, but nothing sticks out as particularly old or new. It’s just all the same flesh.

“Didn’t know you got along with Graces now,” I say.

“I don’t,” he says.

Even with the front door broken, I don’t feel particularly exposed here. Living things know not to come too close, and things that aren’t 100 percent alive are what I’m best with. So we find a seat in the pews and sit, because we’re too used to the smell of rot, and messed up like that.

Grace-meat has grown into the carpet under our feet. I whisper, “To me,” and hold out my hand. A tendril of flesh peels itself from the ground and finds its way to my fingers, weaving through them like a child holding tight to a parent’s hand. Theo’s throat bobs. I hold out my palm.

“You want to try?” I ask. “It’s not going to hurt you.”

“I’m fine,” he says. “Really.”

“It’s not going to make you sick this time.”

“Still.”

It’s a strange closeness, this flesh curling between my fingers. Something primal, almost paternal.

We came here to talk, so we’re going to talk.

I say, “You never told me why you left the death squads.”

Left is the safest word. No connotations. I pick it because I know better; I saw what happened when people asked at all, let alone used words like kicked out, failed, exiled. I was the one pulling him away when he got upset. Even now, I still expect a darkness to wash over Theo’s expression.

It never comes.

“No, I didn’t tell you.”

“This is me asking.”

“Tell me how you left, and I’ll tell you why I left.”