Back Hell Followed with Us
Chapters (51)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. LETTER FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. Epigraph
  5. Benjamin
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. Chapter 8
  14. Nicholas
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Benjamin
  17. Chapter 10
  18. Chapter 11
  19. Chapter 12
  20. Chapter 13
  21. Chapter 14
  22. Chapter 15
  23. Chapter 16
  24. Chapter 17
  25. Chapter 18
  26. Chapter 19
  27. Chapter 20
  28. Chapter 21
  29. Chapter 22
  30. Nicholas
  31. Chapter 23
  32. Benjamin
  33. Chapter 24
  34. Chapter 25
  35. Theodore
  36. Chapter 26
  37. Benjamin
  38. Chapter 27
  39. Chapter 28
  40. Chapter 29
  41. Chapter 30
  42. Chapter 31
  43. Chapter 32
  44. Chapter 33
  45. Nicholas
  46. Chapter 34
  47. Benjamin
  48. Chapter 35
  49. Chapter 36
  50. Acknowledgments
  51. About the Author

The closer we get, the clearer the hum becomes—cries of the Graces, calling to Heaven, the children’s choir singing about washing clothes with the blood of the Lamb. It’s the same hum I felt when Theo cut his hands and pressed them to the flesh of the church, when he leaned down to kiss it, his blood becoming Jesus’s blood, the same way as wine. It sounds like New Nazareth. It sounds like home.

When I step down from the curb and into the street, I almost stop. I don’t want to go any closer. This is where Brother Hutch was going to take me. This is where I watched Theo fall apart into something other than the boy I grew up with. The Angels always had their claws in him, but this is where they hooked into his insides so deep he could not pull them out without bleeding to death.

But Nick looks back at me, and I follow like I’ve been doing this all my life.

“Are you washed in the blood of the Lamb?” the choir asks in a warbling, childish soprano before fading into a holy echo. We walk around to the back, where a delivery entrance pushes up against a graveyard meant for the bodies of the church’s elders. The door is unlocked; the Watch contains the only people brave enough or stupid enough to come this close.

Nick wrenches it open. We’re greeted by a distant sermon, crying loud to the faithful.

“We have gathered here today,” comes the faint voice of Reverend Brother Morrison, “to celebrate the achievements of our children.” It’s a voice that shakes under the weight of its words, the voice of the man who promised to wed Theo and me by the river when we were ready, when God had made me perfect with the Flood. Nick freezes against the door, eyes squeezed shut. My left hand shakes so badly, I have to shove it into my pocket. “To put the worthy through trial. To help them take their places one step closer to the Lord’s side.”

Nick lets me through first. The room is dark and musty, piled full of boxes and discarded pews. I didn’t need the map of the church we studied; I know this building. Theo and I snuck away while the presiding reverend readied himself for the ceremony, creeping through the halls to find a place all to ourselves. He stopped by a hidden staircase and kissed me, and when we got back my braid was a mess, so everyone knew what we did. I look up to see the same tendrils on the ceiling, a fingernail digging into the beams. We all come in, and Nick closes the door tightly. The room plunges into darkness.

I can do this.