This is all her fault—everything she’s ever done to me, to the people who came before me, every single person who suffered as the Flood broke them apart. I should tear her to shreds, drag her by the leg and bite it off, and crush her body under my claws.

“I know you hate me,” she says, clinging to me, “and you have every right. I understand. If it’s any consolation, we’re all going to Hell for what we’ve done.”

She—

Our living saint is saying the Angels are going to Hell.

Our living saint is…a heretic?

No. No, it doesn’t work like that. She can’t be. She created the Flood. She built Seraph from the ground up. She destroyed me, she destroyed everything. And now she’s trying to repent her repentance? Now she feels bad? Now?

She’s so close. Her face is so close to my fangs. I should just end her. End whatever bullshit she’s trying to pull, end this pathetic attempt to trick me.

But I can’t.

Even though my jaw is dislocated and my insides bubble up when I speak, I manage, “Why?”

“Why?” Her lip trembles. Her hands find my face, and she holds me close, like she’s trying to cradle me, keep me away from the stained white walls and bloody floor. “We have made so many mistakes. I never should have wanted this.” Her eyes are glassy—with terror, remorse, martyrdom. It scares me. “If I can’t take it all back, I can do this. Please, let me do one thing right.”

Mistakes. Let her do one thing right.

But why now? Why is she coming to me now, when I am this—not when she could have stopped this, when she could have never stepped into the Angels’ arms in the first place? Why didn’t she stop when I begged her to? Is it now that she can look me in the eyes and see what she’s done?

I speak because I have to. “Mistakes.”

Sister Kipling says, “Yes. A mistake.”

“I could tell Mom,” I say. “Have you killed.”

“If you want me dead, you can do that now.”

I snap my teeth at her. She squeezes her eyes shut and does not move.

She says, “Lord, just make it quick.”

So I sit back and watch. Watch the heaving of her chest, the quiver to her lip, her fingers clutching her stained white coat.

A heretic. It’s too good to be true.

Nobody who has caused this much suffering deserves an easy ending. She doesn’t get to do one thing right to take even the smallest weight off her soul.

God will judge whether she has truly changed her ways in her heart, but I don’t have the luxury of being sure. I’m fucked no matter what I do, so I might as well try.