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Chapters (51)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. LETTER FROM THE AUTHOR
  4. Epigraph
  5. Benjamin
  6. Chapter 1
  7. Chapter 2
  8. Chapter 3
  9. Chapter 4
  10. Chapter 5
  11. Chapter 6
  12. Chapter 7
  13. Chapter 8
  14. Nicholas
  15. Chapter 9
  16. Benjamin
  17. Chapter 10
  18. Chapter 11
  19. Chapter 12
  20. Chapter 13
  21. Chapter 14
  22. Chapter 15
  23. Chapter 16
  24. Chapter 17
  25. Chapter 18
  26. Chapter 19
  27. Chapter 20
  28. Chapter 21
  29. Chapter 22
  30. Nicholas
  31. Chapter 23
  32. Benjamin
  33. Chapter 24
  34. Chapter 25
  35. Theodore
  36. Chapter 26
  37. Benjamin
  38. Chapter 27
  39. Chapter 28
  40. Chapter 29
  41. Chapter 30
  42. Chapter 31
  43. Chapter 32
  44. Chapter 33
  45. Nicholas
  46. Chapter 34
  47. Benjamin
  48. Chapter 35
  49. Chapter 36
  50. Acknowledgments
  51. About the Author

Revelation 21:4—And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.

You will return to the earth for out of it you were taken; for from dust you were made and to dust you will return.

We find the Grace in the gym. It’s curled atop a melted body, the Grace’s back-bent form desperately huddled around them.

I trace the timeline in their corpses. The Grace’s head is crumpled on the side, the same way Dad’s was. Between the media room and the gym, we found an Angel whom I don’t remember. The pieces click together.

“The Grace was trying to protect them,” I tell Nick. I lead him through my train of thought. I don’t know what happened to the person—maybe they were shot, maybe they died of smoke inhalation, maybe they were immolated, Lord knows, God knows, O Lord our God—but the Grace was gravely wounded before killing the Angel in the hall and coming back to the gym. Maybe the person was dead when they arrived. Maybe they weren’t. But the Grace curled around them, or what was left of them, and died.

“At least, that’s what I think,” I say. “I don’t know.”

“No,” Nick says, crouching beside me. “That sounds right.”

You will return to the earth for out of it you were taken; for from dust you were made and to dust you will return.

“Are you okay?” he asks.

“Okay enough.” I have to say it. I have to get it out of my head. I twist my hands together and steady my voice. “Which squad were you in?”

Nick coughs. “What?”

“Which squad?” I whisper. “Nick? Which death squad were you in?”

His Adam’s apple bobs in his throat. “It doesn’t matter which one,” he rasps, “does it?”

After a second, I say, “No. I guess not.”

“How did you know?”

“I saw your tattoos.” What I can see of his face is even paler than usual. He’s staring at the mangled bodies, jaw working under his mask. “Last night, when you were in the room with me.”

“You were pretending to be asleep,” he accuses.

“You thought I wouldn’t wake up while you were putting bandages on me?” I hold up my arm. He won’t look. “You thought I wouldn’t be a little on edge after everything?” Deep breath—no, no anger, no Seraph, not now. I can’t believe it’s only been a day since Cormac told me Nick was calling me an it. And what right do I have to be angry, after everything I’ve done?

I say, softer, “After yesterday?”