“Oh, Mony. You sound so sad. I like boys, too,” Lydia says. “Maybe you should consider the rest of your options.”

I bite my lip. She’s had multiple crushes on both girls and boys. It’s not like that for me. I think girls—or people who look like girls—are pretty, but that doesn’t always mean I have a crush. Besides, most of the people I’m attracted to are celebrities, and like Claudia said, those don’t count.

The only person I was completely sure about was Sarah. It just doesn’t feel like enough to make me think I’m bisexual like Lydia.

“Boys suck,” Lydia continues. “And Ian doesn’t know how to do a ton of stuff, like—”

“Damn,” Claudia says. “I was just kidding. Poor Ian. If it helps, I’m not very good at going down on Emma, but I try because I love her.”

I raise my eyebrows. Lydia cocks her head to the side.

“What?” Claudia says. “It’s not like I’m incapable of having sex. I just don’t get into it, but I don’t mind doing it if she wants— Look, it’s complicated, okay?”

Sex comes after kissing, doesn’t it? I don’t know how any of this works, not really, since I haven’t done anything more than go on a date. With the way Lydia talks about it, I figure she and her boyfriends started doing sex stuff right away. Even Claudia and her girlfriend are doing things. I might be getting ahead of myself, but I know I want to kiss Miles again. He can’t get the virus from kissing, but I already know that I want more. What if he does, too?

“Guys.” I grip my locker door, turning my body toward them. “What am I gonna do if we kiss again?”

“Enjoy it?” Lydia says, brows furrowed. “I don’t understand. Didn’t you like kissing him?”

“Yeah, of course,” I say, trying to hold back a sigh. This would be easier if they knew why I’m so freaked out. “But what if he wants to have sex?”

Lydia cocks her head to the side. Claudia raises her brows. They both share a look.

“You literally kissed once, Simone,” Claudia says slowly, like I might not understand. “It doesn’t mean you’re getting married.”

“But what if—”

“I know what you mean,” Lydia says carefully. “The kiss happened so fast, and now you’re worried about what’s gonna happen next. But sex is such a big step. I don’t think you should worry about it so much until you know for sure where you guys are going with this. Does that make sense?”