Oh. “Honestly, don’t care. As long as he’s hot, I’m craving the attention. Anything to make me feel like less of a second choice.” The pain has worn me thin, like a piece of brittle that’s waiting to crack at the slightest pressure. Luckily, I have Jade. I can be completely honest with her. We’ve been best friends since high school, and while she’s wild, she never judged me. She taught me things that I should have learned through other experiences I was too scared to go through with.

Spin the bottle? She was my first kiss.

Seven minutes in heaven? My first crush, Mark, was chosen to go in with Jade and she saw how upset I was, so instead of going in with him, she took me. We didn’t care who thought what, we were just inseparable.

Without her, I wouldn’t have discovered the world of toys, which as a virgin, changed my life. She taught me how to touch myself, how to feel my body and I’ll forever be grateful to her for that.

“Hot.” She takes her finger through the air, making a checkmark. “I’m looking for hot too.” She laughs, “Really anything with a nice, hard cock.”

I playfully slap her arm, “Jesus, Jade.”

“Jesus won’t have any part of what’s going down in this club tonight. Come on!”

I can’t help but tug at the too short black dress, this thing doesn’t want to cooperate with my wide hips. “My ass will be on show.” I snort, contemplating slipping on a pair of tights.

Jade’s gaze follows my line of sight, “No, take your eyes off of that drawer right this instant, Macey!”

“Ugh,” I huff, peeling my body away from my dresser. “Okay. Let’s go before I change my mind.”

She laughs, picking up her purse. “Understood.”

We take our four minutes’ walk down the city streets before making it in front of the neon lit club.

* * *

Okay, okay. Breathe in, breathe out. It’s just a nightclub, full of horny, drunk people.

Exactly what I’m looking for, so why am I so scared to go in?

We walk through the doors of Altitude, and a burning sensation creeps up my spine, I’m being watched. My eyes dart across the fog-filled area, streaks of pink and blue clouds make it seem like we’re in Heaven more than a nightclub and I find the source of the unusual feeling, men. So many men. Hot, tall, black suit wearing men. It’s beautiful in here, a place where you go to have the time of your life.

The shadows and the laser lights that beam across my body make me feel like I’m on a stage. “It’s loud!” I shout to Jade.