“You were still dealing with losing John and your own new job. I was thinking of you, Nick. I didn’t set out to deceive you. I was trying to protect you.” She took a deep breath to contend with the pain in her gut. “Remember when we talked about you becoming a senator, when I said I was worried about my shit landing all over you and making you look bad just as you got this great opportunity? This is exactly what I was talking about. I was thinking of you.”

At that, some of his steam seemed to dissipate. “I don’t expect you to protect me. I never asked you to do that.”

“Can’t help it,” she said with a shrug. “I love you. I don’t want to be responsible for causing you problems at work or anywhere else.”

“And I’m not supposed to feel the same way? You’re in trouble at work because of me. That kills me, Sam.”

She reached for him, brought him close to her and rested her head on his chest. “I’ll tell you the same thing I told my dad last night.” Glancing up at his handsome, earnest face, her heart ached with love. “You’re worth it. No matter what happens, you’re so, so, so worth it.”

Even though he seemed moved by her words, he shook his head. “We should’ve waited until the case was closed. You knew this could happen. You tried to tell me, but I wanted you so much. I didn’t listen to you—”

“Don’t.” She rested her fingers on his lips. “I wouldn’t change one thing about the way we fell in love. It’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me. You are the best thing. How could I regret that?”

“But if you lose your rank. I can’t believe they’re even considering that.”

“It might be for the best.”

He stared at her, incredulous. “How in the world can you say that?”

“Less responsibility, fewer hours, fewer demands.” She made a huge effort to keep her tone light. “More time for you. Might be just what we need.”

“No, it isn’t. It can’t happen. I’d never forgive myself if I caused that to happen to you.”

“Let’s not worry about it until it happens. Captain Andrews is known for being logical. He’ll do the right thing.”

“What if he doesn’t?”

“We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.” She forced a teasing grin. “You’ve got Girl Scouts coming to visit. You can’t keep them waiting.”

“Will you call me? The minute you hear anything?”

“I will.”

“And no more keeping stuff from me?”

“No more keeping stuff from you. I promise.”

Chapter 24