Chapters (71)
- Cover
- Dedication
- Prologue
- Chapter One
- Chapter Two
- Chapter Three
- Chapter Four
- Chapter Five
- Chapter Six
- Chapter Seven
- Chapter Eight
- Chapter Nine
- Chapter Ten
- Chapter Eleven
- Chapter Twelve
- Chapter Thirteen
- Chapter Fourteen
- Chapter Fifteen
- Chapter Sixteen
- Chapter Seventeen
- Chapter Eighteen
- Chapter Nineteen
- Chapter Twenty
- Chapter Twenty-One
- Chapter Twenty-Two
- Chapter Twenty-Three
- Chapter Twenty-Four
- Chapter Twenty-Five
- Chapter Twenty-Six
- Chapter Twenty-Seven
- Chapter Twenty-Eight
- Chapter Twenty-Nine
- Chapter Thirty
- Chapter Thirty-One
- Chapter Thirty-Two
- Chapter Thirty-Three
- Chapter Thirty-Four
- Chapter Thirty-Five
- Chapter Thirty-Six
- Chapter Thirty-Seven
- Chapter Thirty-Eight
- Chapter Thirty-Nine
- Chapter Forty
- Chapter Forty-One
- Chapter Forty-Two
- Chapter Forty-Three
- Chapter Forty-Four
- Chapter Forty-Five
- Chapter Forty-Six
- Chapter Forty-Seven
- Chapter Forty-Eight
- Chapter Forty-Nine
- Chapter Fifty
- Chapter Fifty-One
- Chapter Fifty-Two
- Chapter Fifty-Three
- Chapter Fifty-Four
- Chapter Fifty-Five
- Chapter Fifty-Six
- Chapter Fifty-Seven
- Chapter Fifty-Eight
- Chapter Fifty-Nine
- Chapter Sixty
- Chapter Sixty-One
- Chapter Sixty-Two
- Chapter Sixty-Three
- Chapter Sixty-Four
- A Letter from Jackie
- Acknowledgements
- About the Author
- Also by Jackie Walsh
Mom has fallen asleep with her hand still cradled in mine.
When the doctor leaves, I lay my head on the side of Mom’s bed. Lucy tidies things up, then tells me to press the red button if Mom shows any signs of being agitated.
With the room empty of strangers I straighten up and pull the chair in closer to the bed. I look at Mom’s eyelids flickering in her sleep. I want to see her secrets, see behind the fading windows into her soul.
‘Tell me, Mom. What did you mean? What do you know?’
Her breathing sounds like the second hand printing machine Dad bought when I was a kid – puff-puff, chukka-chukka, puff-puff-pow. Mom went crazy when he assembled it in the back room of the house. Said it was like living at the Boston Globe. It lasted for less than a week, then Dad had to sell it, at a loss. He moaned for a while but Mom said he would have experienced a much bigger loss if he’d kept it.
With my head resting on the bed I close my eyes and fall asleep until a trolley passes by the door, the noise from the squeaky wheels waking me up. Jolting into an upright position, I look out the window to see shades of tomorrow piercing the darkness. I check my phone and see Jeff has sent two text messages, asking where I am, if I’m okay. I’d forgotten about Jeff, that there was someone out there who cared. I look to the parking lot below, where a nurse is getting out of a car, cup of coffee in hand, blue uniform freshly ironed. It’s not even six a.m. yet.
Then I think of Dr. Reilly, and wonder what time she gets to her office. I doubt it’s this early. The idea hits me like a baseball bat to my unprotected head.
Dr. Josie Reilly’s office is empty now.
Chapter Forty-Four
Passing Barry wasn’t an issue, I told him I was going for a stroll to stretch my legs. He asked if everything was okay with Mom and I told him what happened. He sighed, shook his head, and made some comment about being in the hands of our Maker.
Dr. Reilly’s office is the third door down. Standing outside, the keypad glows like temptation. I know this could get me into a lot of trouble, but I need to find out what’s in that report, what led to me being dropped from the trial. A loud crash echoes from the lobby. I freeze, keeping my eye on the door at the end of the corridor, but no one comes through it.