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Contents ( 98)
  1. Contents
  2. CAST OF CHARACTERS
  3. PART ONE
  4. WALL
  5. 1961
  6. CHAPTER ONE
  7. CHAPTER TWO
  8. CHAPTER THREE
  9. CHAPTER FOUR
  10. CHAPTER FIVE
  11. CHAPTER SIX
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. CHAPTER NINE
  15. CHAPTER TEN
  16. PART TWO
  17. BUG
  18. 1961–1962
  19. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  20. CHAPTER TWELVE
  21. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  22. PART THREE
  23. ISLAND
  24. 1962
  25. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  26. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  27. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  28. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  29. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  30. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY
  32. PART FOUR
  33. GUN
  34. 1963
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  41. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  42. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  43. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY
  45. PART FIVE
  46. SONG
  47. 1963–1967
  48. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FORTY
  58. PART SIX
  59. FLOWER
  60. 1968
  61. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  62. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  63. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  64. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  65. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  66. PART SEVEN
  67. TAPE
  68. 1972–1974
  69. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  70. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  71. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  72. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  73. CHAPTER FIFTY
  74. PART EIGHT
  75. YARD
  76. 1976–1983
  77. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  78. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  79. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  80. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  81. PART NINE
  82. BOMB
  83. 1984–1987
  84. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  85. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  86. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  88. PART TEN
  89. WALL
  90. 1988–1989
  91. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  92. CHAPTER SIXTY
  93. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  94. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  95. EPILOGUE
  96. November 4, 2008
  97. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  98. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

Alice said: “We’ve applied for permission to go to West Germany.” She was all youthful eagerness.

“We?” Lili asked.

“Helmut and I.”

Helmut Kappel was her boyfriend. He was a year older, twenty-two, and studying at university.

“Any special reason?”

“I’ve said we want to visit my father in Hamburg. Helmut’s grandparents are in Frankfurt. But Plum Nellie are doing a world tour, and we really want to see my father onstage. Maybe we can time our visit to coincide with his German gig, if he does one.”

“I’m sure he will.”

“Do you think they’ll let us go?”

“You may be lucky.” Lili did not want to discourage youthful optimism, but she was doubtful. She herself had always been refused permission. Very few people were allowed to go. The authorities would suspect that people as young as Alice and Helmut did not intend to come back.

Lili suspected it herself. Alice had often talked wistfully of living in West Germany. Like most young people, she wanted to read uncensored books and newspapers, see new films and plays, and listen to music regardless of whether it was approved by the seventy-two-year-old Erich Honecker. If she managed to get out of East Germany, why would she come back?

Alice said: “You know, most of the things that got this family into bad odor with the authorities actually happened before I was born. They shouldn’t be punishing me.”

But her mother, Karolin, was still singing those songs, Lili thought.

The doorbell sounded, and a minute later they heard agitated voices in the hall. They went downstairs to investigate, and found Karolin standing there in a wet raincoat. Inexplicably, she was carrying a suitcase. She had been let in by Carla, who stood beside her in the hall, wearing an apron over her formal work clothes.

Karolin’s face was red and puffy with crying.

Alice said: “Mother . . . ?”

Lili said: “Has something happened?”

Karolin said: “Alice, your stepfather has left me.”

Lili was flabbergasted. Odo Vossler? It was surprising to her that mild Odo had the guts to leave his wife.

Alice put her arms around her mother, saying nothing.

Carla said: “When did this happen?”

Karolin wiped her nose with a handkerchief. “He told me three hours ago. He wants a divorce.”

Lili thought: Poor Alice, left by two fathers.

Carla said indignantly: “But pastors are not supposed to get divorced.”

“He’s leaving the clergy, too.”

“Good grief.”

Lili realized that an earthquake had struck the family.

Carla became practical. “You’d better sit down. We’ll go in the kitchen. Alice, take your mother’s coat and hang it up to dry. Lili, make coffee.”

Lili put water on to boil and took a cake out of the cupboard. Carla said: “Karolin, whatever has come over Odo?”

She looked down. “He is . . .” She obviously found this difficult to say. Averting her eyes, she said quietly: “Odo tells me he has realized that he is homosexual.”

Alice gave a little scream.