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Contents ( 98)
  1. Contents
  2. CAST OF CHARACTERS
  3. PART ONE
  4. WALL
  5. 1961
  6. CHAPTER ONE
  7. CHAPTER TWO
  8. CHAPTER THREE
  9. CHAPTER FOUR
  10. CHAPTER FIVE
  11. CHAPTER SIX
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. CHAPTER NINE
  15. CHAPTER TEN
  16. PART TWO
  17. BUG
  18. 1961–1962
  19. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  20. CHAPTER TWELVE
  21. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  22. PART THREE
  23. ISLAND
  24. 1962
  25. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  26. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  27. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  28. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  29. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  30. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY
  32. PART FOUR
  33. GUN
  34. 1963
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  41. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  42. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  43. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY
  45. PART FIVE
  46. SONG
  47. 1963–1967
  48. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FORTY
  58. PART SIX
  59. FLOWER
  60. 1968
  61. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  62. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  63. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  64. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  65. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  66. PART SEVEN
  67. TAPE
  68. 1972–1974
  69. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  70. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  71. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  72. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  73. CHAPTER FIFTY
  74. PART EIGHT
  75. YARD
  76. 1976–1983
  77. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  78. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  79. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  80. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  81. PART NINE
  82. BOMB
  83. 1984–1987
  84. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  85. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  86. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  88. PART TEN
  89. WALL
  90. 1988–1989
  91. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  92. CHAPTER SIXTY
  93. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  94. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  95. EPILOGUE
  96. November 4, 2008
  97. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  98. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

She did not need to come here to remember him. She thought about him every day. His death was an amputation: she was constantly surprised to find he was not there. Alone in the flat they had shared for so long, she often talked to him, telling him about her day, commenting on the news, saying how she felt, hungry or tired or restless. She had not altered the place, and it still had the ropes and handles that had enabled him to move himself around. His wheelchair stood at the side of the bed as if ready for him to sit upright and haul himself into it. When she masturbated, she imagined him lying beside her, one arm around her, the warmth of his body, his lips on hers.

Fortunately her work was constantly absorbing and challenging. She was now a junior minister in the foreign affairs department of the West German government. Because she spoke Russian and had lived in East Germany she specialized in Eastern Europe. She had little free time.

Tragically, the reunification of Germany seemed ever farther away. Die-hard East German leader Erich Honecker appeared unassailable. People were still being killed trying to escape across the Wall. And in the Soviet Union the death of Andropov had only brought in yet another ailing septuagenarian leader, Konstantin Chernenko. From Berlin to Vladivostok, the Soviet empire was a bog in which its citizens struggled and often sank but never made progress.

Rebecca realized her mind had wandered from Bernd. It was time to go. “Good-bye, my love,” she said softly, and she walked slowly away from the grave.

She pulled her heavy coat around her and folded her arms as she crossed the cold cemetery. She gratefully got into her vehicle and turned on the engine. She was still driving the van with the wheelchair hoist. It was time she traded it in for a normal car.

She drove to her apartment. Outside her building was a shiny black Mercedes S500, with a chauffeur in a cap standing beside it. Her spirits lifted. As she expected, she found that Walli had let himself into the apartment with his own key. He was sitting at the kitchen table with the radio on, tapping his foot to a pop song. On the table was a copy of Plum Nellie’s latest album, The Interpretation of Dreams. “I’m glad I caught you,” he said. “I’m on my way to the airport. I’m flying to San Francisco.” He stood up to kiss her.

He would be forty in a couple of years, and he looked great. He still smoked, but he never took drugs or alcohol. He was wearing a tan leather jacket over a blue denim shirt. Some girl ought to snap him up, Rebecca thought; but although he had girlfriends he seemed in no hurry to settle down.

When she kissed him she touched his arm and noticed that the leather of his jacket was as soft as silk. It had probably cost a fortune. She said: “But you’ve only just finished your album.”