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Contents ( 98)
  1. Contents
  2. CAST OF CHARACTERS
  3. PART ONE
  4. WALL
  5. 1961
  6. CHAPTER ONE
  7. CHAPTER TWO
  8. CHAPTER THREE
  9. CHAPTER FOUR
  10. CHAPTER FIVE
  11. CHAPTER SIX
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. CHAPTER NINE
  15. CHAPTER TEN
  16. PART TWO
  17. BUG
  18. 1961–1962
  19. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  20. CHAPTER TWELVE
  21. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  22. PART THREE
  23. ISLAND
  24. 1962
  25. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  26. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  27. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  28. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  29. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  30. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY
  32. PART FOUR
  33. GUN
  34. 1963
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  41. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  42. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  43. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY
  45. PART FIVE
  46. SONG
  47. 1963–1967
  48. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FORTY
  58. PART SIX
  59. FLOWER
  60. 1968
  61. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  62. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  63. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  64. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  65. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  66. PART SEVEN
  67. TAPE
  68. 1972–1974
  69. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  70. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  71. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  72. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  73. CHAPTER FIFTY
  74. PART EIGHT
  75. YARD
  76. 1976–1983
  77. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  78. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  79. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  80. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  81. PART NINE
  82. BOMB
  83. 1984–1987
  84. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  85. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  86. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  88. PART TEN
  89. WALL
  90. 1988–1989
  91. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  92. CHAPTER SIXTY
  93. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  94. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  95. EPILOGUE
  96. November 4, 2008
  97. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  98. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

“How is Walli?” he said worriedly.

“He’s had a hit of dope, just enough to get him through the gig. He’ll shoot up when he comes offstage. He’s all right to play.”

“Thank God.”

She was wearing satin hot pants and a sequined bra top. She had put on a little weight since the recording sessions, Dave saw: her bust seemed bigger and she even had a cute tummy bulge. He offered her a drink. She asked for a Coke. “Help yourself to a cigarette,” he said.

“I quit.”

“That’s why you’ve put on weight.”

“No, it’s not.”

“That wasn’t a put-down. You look fabulous.”

“I’m leaving Walli.”

That shocked him. He turned from the bar and stared at her. “Wow,” he said. “Does he know yet?”

“I’m going to tell him after tonight’s show.”

“That’s a relief. But what about all that stuff you told me about being a less selfish person and saving Walli’s life?”

“I have a more important life to save.”

“Your own?”

“My baby’s.”

“Christ.” Dave sat down. “You’re pregnant.”

“Three months.”

“That’s why your shape has changed.”

“And smoking makes me puke. I don’t even use pot anymore.”

The dressing-room PA crackled, and a voice said: “Five minutes to showtime, everybody. All stage technicians should now be in performance positions.”

Dave said: “If you’re pregnant, why are you leaving Walli?”

“I’m not bringing up a child in that environment. It’s one thing to sacrifice myself, something else to do it to a kid. This child is going to have a normal life.”

“Where will you go?”

“I’m moving back in with my mom and dad.” She shook her head in a gesture of wonder. “It’s incredible. For ten years I’ve done everything I could to piss them off, but when I needed their help they just said yes. Fucking amazing.”

The PA said: “One minute, everybody. The band are kindly invited to move to the wings whenever they’re ready.”

Dave was struck by a thought. “Three months . . .”

“I don’t know whose baby it is,” Beep said. “I conceived while you were making the album. I was on the pill, but sometimes I used to forget to take it, especially if I was stoned.”

“But you told me that Walli and you seldom had sex.”

“Seldom isn’t never. I’d say there’s a ten percent chance it’s Walli’s baby.”

“So ninety percent mine.”

Lew looked into Dave’s tent. “Here we go,” he said.

“I’m coming,” Dave said.

Lew went, and Dave said to Beep: “Live with me.”

She stared at him. “Do you mean it?”

“Yes.”

“Even if it’s not your baby?”

“I’m sure I’ll love your baby. I love you. Hell, I love Walli. Live with me, please.”

“Oh, God,” she said, and she started to cry. “I was hoping and praying you’d say this.”

“Does that mean you will?”

“Of course. It’s what I’m longing for.”

Dave felt as if the sun had risen. “Well, then, that’s what we’ll do,” he said.