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Contents ( 98)
  1. Contents
  2. CAST OF CHARACTERS
  3. PART ONE
  4. WALL
  5. 1961
  6. CHAPTER ONE
  7. CHAPTER TWO
  8. CHAPTER THREE
  9. CHAPTER FOUR
  10. CHAPTER FIVE
  11. CHAPTER SIX
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. CHAPTER NINE
  15. CHAPTER TEN
  16. PART TWO
  17. BUG
  18. 1961–1962
  19. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  20. CHAPTER TWELVE
  21. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  22. PART THREE
  23. ISLAND
  24. 1962
  25. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  26. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  27. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  28. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  29. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  30. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY
  32. PART FOUR
  33. GUN
  34. 1963
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  41. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  42. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  43. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY
  45. PART FIVE
  46. SONG
  47. 1963–1967
  48. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FORTY
  58. PART SIX
  59. FLOWER
  60. 1968
  61. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  62. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  63. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  64. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  65. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  66. PART SEVEN
  67. TAPE
  68. 1972–1974
  69. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  70. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  71. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  72. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  73. CHAPTER FIFTY
  74. PART EIGHT
  75. YARD
  76. 1976–1983
  77. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  78. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  79. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  80. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  81. PART NINE
  82. BOMB
  83. 1984–1987
  84. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  85. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  86. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  88. PART TEN
  89. WALL
  90. 1988–1989
  91. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  92. CHAPTER SIXTY
  93. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  94. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  95. EPILOGUE
  96. November 4, 2008
  97. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  98. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

“Nice.” They reached Haight-Ashbury and Beep stopped the car outside Walli’s house. “You want a cup of coffee or something?” Walli did not know why he said that: it just came out.

“Sure.” Beep turned off the throaty engine.

The house was empty. Tammy and Lisa had helped Walli deal with his grief about Karolin’s engagement, and he would always be grateful to them, but they had been living a fantasy life that had lasted only as long as the vacation. When summer turned to fall they had left San Francisco and gone home to attend college, like most of the hippies of 1967.

While it lasted, it had been an idyllic time.

Walli put on the new Beatles album, Magical Mystery Tour, then made coffee and rolled a joint. They sat on a giant cushion, Walli cross-legged, Beep with her feet tucked under her, and passed the roach. Soon Walli drifted into the mellow mood he liked so much. “I hate the Beatles,” he said after a while. “They are so fucking good.”

Beep giggled.

Walli said: “Weird lyrics.”

“I know!”

“What does that line mean? ‘Four of fish and finger pies.’ It sounds like, you know, cannibalism.”

“Dave explained that to me,” Beep said. “In England they have seafood restaurants that sell fish in batter with French fries to go. They call it ‘fish and chips.’ And ‘four of fish’ means four pennies’ worth.”

“What about ‘finger pie’?”

“Okay, that’s when a boy puts his finger up a girl’s, you know, vagina.”

“And the connection?”

“It means that if you bought fish and chips for a girl she would let you finger her.”

“Remember the days when that was daring?” Walli said nostalgically.

“Everything’s different now, thank God,” said Beep. “The old rules don’t apply anymore. Love is free.”

“Now it’s oral sex on the first date.”

“What do you like best?” Beep mused. “Giving oral sex, or receiving?”

“What a difficult question!” Walli was not sure he ought to be talking about this with his best friend’s fiancée. “But I think I like receiving.” He could not resist the temptation to add: “What about you?”

“I prefer giving,” she said.

“Why?”

She hesitated. For a moment she looked guilty: perhaps she, too, was not sure they should be discussing this, despite her hippie talk about free love. She took a long draw on the joint and blew out smoke. Her face cleared, and she said: “Most boys are so bad at oral sex that receiving is never as exciting as it should be.”

Walli took the joint from her. “If you could tell the boys of America what they need to know about giving oral sex, what would you say?”

She laughed. “Well, first of all, don’t start licking right away.”

“No?” Walli was surprised. “I thought it was all about licking.”

“Not at all. You should be gentle at first. Just kiss it!”

Walli knew, then, that he was lost.

He looked down at Beep’s legs. Her knees were pressed close together. Was that defensive? Or a sign of excitement?