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Contents ( 98)
  1. Contents
  2. CAST OF CHARACTERS
  3. PART ONE
  4. WALL
  5. 1961
  6. CHAPTER ONE
  7. CHAPTER TWO
  8. CHAPTER THREE
  9. CHAPTER FOUR
  10. CHAPTER FIVE
  11. CHAPTER SIX
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. CHAPTER NINE
  15. CHAPTER TEN
  16. PART TWO
  17. BUG
  18. 1961–1962
  19. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  20. CHAPTER TWELVE
  21. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  22. PART THREE
  23. ISLAND
  24. 1962
  25. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  26. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  27. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  28. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  29. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  30. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY
  32. PART FOUR
  33. GUN
  34. 1963
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  41. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  42. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  43. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  44. CHAPTER THIRTY
  45. PART FIVE
  46. SONG
  47. 1963–1967
  48. CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
  49. CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
  50. CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
  51. CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
  52. CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
  53. CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
  54. CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
  55. CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
  56. CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
  57. CHAPTER FORTY
  58. PART SIX
  59. FLOWER
  60. 1968
  61. CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
  62. CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
  63. CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
  64. CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
  65. CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
  66. PART SEVEN
  67. TAPE
  68. 1972–1974
  69. CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
  70. CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
  71. CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
  72. CHAPTER FORTY-NINE
  73. CHAPTER FIFTY
  74. PART EIGHT
  75. YARD
  76. 1976–1983
  77. CHAPTER FIFTY-ONE
  78. CHAPTER FIFTY-TWO
  79. CHAPTER FIFTY-THREE
  80. CHAPTER FIFTY-FOUR
  81. PART NINE
  82. BOMB
  83. 1984–1987
  84. CHAPTER FIFTY-FIVE
  85. CHAPTER FIFTY-SIX
  86. CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
  87. CHAPTER FIFTY-EIGHT
  88. PART TEN
  89. WALL
  90. 1988–1989
  91. CHAPTER FIFTY-NINE
  92. CHAPTER SIXTY
  93. CHAPTER SIXTY-ONE
  94. CHAPTER SIXTY-TWO
  95. EPILOGUE
  96. November 4, 2008
  97. CHAPTER SIXTY-THREE
  98. ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

One evening while he was undressing she said: “Take off your jeans.”

He looked at her, lying on the hotel bed wearing just her panties and a denim cap. “What are you talking about?”

“Tonight you’re my slave. Do as you’re told. Take off your jeans.”

He was already taking them off, and he was about to say so when he realized that this was a fantasy. The thought amused him, and he decided to play along. He pretended to be reluctant, and said: “Aw, do I have to?”

“You have to do everything I say, because you belong to me,” she said. “Take off your goddamn jeans.”

“Yes, ma’am,” Dave said.

She sat upright, watching him. He saw the mischievous lust in her faint smile. “Very good,” she said.

Dave said: “What should I do next?”

Dave knew why he had fallen so hard for Beep, both when he was thirteen and again a few days ago. She was full of fun, ready to try anything, hungry for new experiences. With some girls, Dave had been bored after two fucks. He felt he could never get bored with Beep.

They made love, Dave pretending reluctance while Beep ordered him to do things he was already longing for. It was weirdly exciting.

Afterward he said idly: “Where did you get your nickname, anyway?”

“Have I never told you?”

“No. There’s so much I don’t know about you. Yet I feel as if we’ve been close for years.”

“When I was little I had a toy car, the kind you sit in and pedal. I don’t even remember it, but apparently I loved it. I spent hours driving it, and I used to say: ‘Beep! Beep!’”

They got dressed and went for hamburgers. Dave saw her bite into hers, watched the juice run down her chin, and realized that he was in love.

“I don’t want to go back to London,” he said.

She swallowed and said: “Then stay.”

“I can’t. Plum Nellie has to make a new album. Then we go on tour in Australia and New Zealand.”

“I adore you,” she said. “When you go, I’ll cry. But I’m not going to spoil today by being miserable about tomorrow. Eat your hamburger. You need the protein.”

“I feel we’re soul mates. I know I’m young, but I’ve had a lot of different girls.”

“No need to brag. I’ve done pretty well, too.”

“I didn’t mean to brag. I’m not even proud of it—it’s too easy when you’re a pop singer. I’m trying to explain, to myself as well as to you, why I feel so sure.”

She dipped a French fry into ketchup. “Sure of what?”

“That I want this to be permanent.”

She froze with the French fry halfway to her mouth, then put it back on the plate. “What do you mean?”

“I want us to be together always. I want us to live together.”

“Live together . . . how?”

“Beep,” he said.

“Still here.”

He reached across the table and took her hand. “Would you think about maybe getting married?”