Back Clean Air
Chapters (41)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3.     Chapter One
  4.     Chapter Two
  5.     Chapter Three
  6.     Chapter Four
  7.     Chapter Five
  8.     Chapter Six
  9.     Chapter Seven
  10.     Chapter Eight
  11.     Chapter Nine
  12.     Chapter Ten
  13.     Chapter Eleven
  14.     Chapter Twelve
  15.     Chapter Thirteen
  16.     Chapter Fourteen
  17.     Chapter Fifteen
  18.     Chapter Sixteen
  19.     Chapter Seventeen
  20.     Chapter Eighteen
  21.     Chapter Nineteen
  22.     Chapter Twenty
  23.     Chapter Twenty-One
  24.     Chapter Twenty-Two
  25.     Chapter Twenty-Three
  26. Chapter Twenty-Four
  27.     Chapter Twenty-Five
  28.     Chapter Twenty-Six
  29.     Chapter Twenty-Seven
  30.     Chapter Twenty-Eight
  31.     Chapter Twenty-Nine
  32. Chapter Thirty
  33.     Chapter Thirty-One
  34.     Chapter Thirty-Two
  35.     Chapter Thirty-Three
  36.     Chapter Thirty-Four
  37.     Chapter Thirty-Five
  38.     Chapter Thirty-Six
  39. Acknowledgments
  40. Also by Sarah Blake
  41. About the Author

Cami didn’t pick up any of the superheroes. Instead she built something. Opa kept tapping as she put a few brown blocks together and then a few green blocks on top of them. It was a little tree. She placed it inside the ring of police and put the figurine in the bed on top of the tree. Then she jumped the tree outside of the ring and put the figurine of Izabel down next to Cami and Kaito.

“Does that feel better?” Opa asked.

Cami nodded.

“Can you do your elevator breathing again, Cami?”

Cami put her hands in her lap and started moving them up and down with her breath. Opa kept tapping for a few of her breaths. Then she stepped back around and sat in front of Cami again.

“Thanks for playing with me,” Opa said.

“I like playing with you.”

“I like playing with you, too. Can I ask you a few questions?”

“Okay,” Cami said.

“Do you feel safe at home?”

“At my new home or my old home?”

“At your new home.”

“Yeah.”

“Do you feel safe when you’re with your parents?”

“Mmhmm.”

“Do you feel safe with Jana?”

“Jana is nice. She plays with me.”

“Does everyone at home seem happy?”

“Yes.”

“No one seems extra sleepy or grumpy?”

“No.”

“Do you know anything about guns, Cami?”

She shook her head.

“Do you know why you’re at the hospital today?”

“No.”

“Remember you told me you’ve been sad in your sleep?”

Cami nodded.

“That happened again last night.”

“Am I sick?”

“I don’t think so,” Opa said.

“Then why am I at the hospital?”

“We have better tools here, which can help you, Cami. Tonight you’re going to sleep here and I’m going to watch you and make sure I can help you, if you feel sad again.”

“I don’t want to sleep here.”

“What if your mom can sleep here with you? Then would it be okay?”

“Can I see my mom?”

“Very soon.”

“And my dad? And Jana?”

“Everybody. Very soon.”

Cami nodded.

Opa left and a nurse went in. Cami smiled at the nurse even though she was someone she’d never met before, even though she was a complete stranger.

The conversation with Jana went differently. They didn’t sit at the table and play with toys. They sat in regular chairs, and Jana seemed torn between acting engaged and dismissive.

“I want to go back to Izabel and Kaito and Cami,” Jana said.

“Can you tell me what it’s like living with them?”

“It’s nice. They’re nice.”

“Do they drink alcohol or do drugs around you?”

“No.”

“Do you feel safe with them?”

“That’s kind of a trick question because I don’t feel safe anywhere right now. That doesn’t have anything to do with them.”

“That’s fair. Let me ask then, do you feel comfortable with them?”

“Yes.”