Chapters (20)
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- Preface
- Ladders to Fire
- Main Characters
- Publishing History
- Prologue
- This Hunger
- Bread and the Wafer
- Children of the Albatross
- Main Characters
- Introduction
- The Sealed Room
- The Café
- The Four-Chambered Heart
- Beginning
- A Spy in the House of Love
- Publishing History
- Seduction of the Minotaur
- About the Author
- More Titles from Sky Blue Press
When Stella was invited by some titled person or other to stay at a mansion in the south of France, she invited them all.
When the ballet master fell ill with asthma and could no longer teach dancing, he was fed by all of them.
There was another kind of family, and Uncle Philip wished he could discover the secret of their genealogy.
With this curiosity he dressed and went off to the café.
Michael liked to awaken first and look upon the face of Donald asleep on the pillows, as if he could extract from the reality of Donald's face asleep on a pillow within reach of his hand, a certitude which might quiet his anxiety, a certitude which, once awake, Donald would proceed to destroy gradually all through the day and evening.
At no time when he was awake could Donald dispense the word Michael needed, dispense the glance, the smallest act to prove his love.
Michael's feelings at that moment exactly resembled Lillian's feelings in regard to Jay.
Like Lillian he longed for some trivial gift that would prove Donald had wanted to make him a gift. Like Lillian he longed for a word he could enclose within his being that would place him at the center. Like Lillian he longed for some moment of passionate intensity that would be like those vast fires in the iron factory from which the iron emerged incandescent, welded, complete.
He had to be content with Donald asleep upon his pillow.
With Donald's presence.
But no sooner would his eyes open than Donald would proceed to weave a world as inaccessible to Michael as the protean, fluid world of Jay became inaccessible to Lillian.
This weaving began always with Donald's little songs of nonsense with which he established the mood of the day on a pitch too light for Michael to seize, and which he sang not to please himself, but with a note of defiance, of provocation to Michael:
Nothing is lost but it changes
into the new string old string
into the new bag old bag...
"Michael," said Donald, "today I would like to go to the zoo and see the new weasel who cried so desperately when she was left alone."
Michael thought: "How human of him to feel sympathy for the weasel crying in solitude in its cage." And Donald's sympathy for the weasel encouraged him to say tenderly: "Would you cry like that if you were left alone?"
"Not at all," said Donald, "I wouldn't mind at all. I like to be alone."
"You wouldn't mind if I left you?"
Donald shrugged his shoulders and sang:
in the new pan old tin
in the new shoe old leather
in the new silk old hair
in the new hat old straw...
"Anyhow," said Donald, "what I like best in the zoo is not the weasel, it's the rhinoceros with his wonderful tough hide."