“And then what?” and it begins to penetrate that he really is asking for a reason. “You didn’t change into a new pair of panty hose,” he says. “Why not?”

It’s not a frivolous question after all. Of course nothing he asks really is even when he’s being funny.

AT MY HEADQUARTERS, BRYCE is in charge of keeping certain necessities in stock including coffee, snacks, standard toiletries—and extra pairs of panty hose.

If he doesn’t oversee the supply of such things there’s a good chance they won’t enter my mind because skirts and stockings aren’t my friends even if I pretend otherwise. Given the choice, I wear my usual field clothes of flame- and insect-resistant cargo pants, the more pockets the better, and tactical shirts embroidered with the CFC crest.

And of course sturdy cotton socks and low-profile boots. I’m also partial to parkas, packable jackets, baseball caps, and I suppose it all goes back to those impressionable years in medical school and the Air Force. When I was getting started I lived in scrubs and BDUs, and if I had my way I still would.

But since I’m often summoned to testify in depositions, in court and before lawmakers, I have to keep other accoutrements on hand that are appropriate for a director and chief who can influence the type of body armor our soldiers wear or whether someone should land in prison.

“I go through several pairs of hose a week at work,” I’m explaining all this to Benton. “And I suppose Bryce hasn’t been shopping much in this heat. Or maybe he’s been too busy with his own dramas to bother ordering things online. So yes, I wasn’t happy when I discovered I had nothing to change into after I ruined my hose. But I don’t know why it didn’t enter my mind to stop in the CVS myself at Harvard Square and pick up another pair so I’m not sitting here bare-legged. I suppose that’s yet another miscalculation on my part.”

“Then what you’re saying is Bryce has been letting you down, and you were upset with him even before he drove you to the Square. When you realized you had nothing to change into, that was the catalyst.” Benton slides his reading glasses out of their case. “But the fuel load was already laid.”

“And what fuel load might you mean?” I smooth my napkin over my skirt and am reminded of how badly I want to get out of these clothes.

“I think you know.”