Back As If on Cue
Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. Happy Birthday in Jazz Clarinet
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. Natalie vs. Reid
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. The First Chair Wars
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. Outplayed
  19. CHAPTER TWELVE
  20. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  22. The Prank War
  23. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  24. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  25. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  26. The Setup
  27. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  28. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY
  30. Aaron Jacobson’s Protégé
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  34. Anything But Music
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY
  42. Acknowledgments
  43. More from the Author
  44. About the Author
  45. Also by Marisa Kanter

“Natalie?” He answers on the second ring, my name a question mark in his voice.

I immediately hang up.

Shit. What is wrong with me? Reid and I don’t FaceTime! Casual texting is new enough! Seeing him on my screen, sitting on his bed, his curls out-of-the-shower damp—it’s a new level to this truce I’m not sure I’m ready for. But we’re collaborators. And I can’t convey over text what I’m feeling when I hear his beat.

It’s Melted. It wasn’t even weird… until I panic hung up and made it weird.

My phone starts vibrating.

He’s calling back.

I check my hair in the mirror. I cannot explain why.

“Hey,” I answer. “What’s up?”

Reid’s eyebrows raise in amusement. “I don’t know. You called me.”

“Right.”

Cue a too-long beat of silence.

“Natalie?” Reid asks. “Did I freeze?”

“The beat,” I say. “I think I know what our quiet act two moment needs to be.”

“You had a breakthrough! Okay. Give me a second.”

Reid is in motion, off his bed and moving to his desk. It takes more than a second to get the setup right. I reach for my laptop while I’m pretty sure Reid is trying to balance me on a stack of books. The screen keeps going black with a flop. But after a measure, I’m set up to see Reid’s profile, his keyboard in the background.

“Okay. Hit me with the vision,” Reid says.

“ ‘Keep It In,’ ” I say. “Can we strip it down?”

Reid stops typing and looks at me. “Wait. Really?”

I nod. “I never considered reworking your lyrics because I always pictured a showstopper. Maybe it’s not. Maybe it’s the quiet, powerful moment Melted needs. Not sung. Spoken.”

Reid considers. “But… you’re so attached to the monologue.”

“I still am,” I continue. “It has everything I want to say—about Adina’s relationship with her powers, about the fear and anger that comes with reckoning with a climate crisis that no one else recognizes. But it doesn’t fit. Not anymore. So maybe we use the monologue as inspiration to rewrite it. Your music. My monologue-turned-lyrics.”

Another beat of silence.

“So what you’re saying—” Reid begins, a smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth “—is that you don’t think we should… let it go.”

I hang up.

Reid calls back immediately.

“I hate you,” I answer.

“Come on! You set me up for that,” Reid says, laughing. “It’s a great idea. A true collaboration.”

He shares a Google doc with me titled KEEP IT IN—redux.

I click into the file and watch Reid type in real time.

“I’m thinking we keep the accompaniment super simple,” I say.

“Agree. We have to be careful. It can be done right, or it can be the Les Mis movie.”

“I don’t know what that means,” I say.