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Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. Happy Birthday in Jazz Clarinet
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. Natalie vs. Reid
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. The First Chair Wars
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. Outplayed
  19. CHAPTER TWELVE
  20. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  22. The Prank War
  23. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  24. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  25. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  26. The Setup
  27. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  28. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY
  30. Aaron Jacobson’s Protégé
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  34. Anything But Music
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY
  42. Acknowledgments
  43. More from the Author
  44. About the Author
  45. Also by Marisa Kanter

It’s later that night and Dad crosses his arms and leans against my door, my confiscated phone in his hand. Mom stands next to him, one hand on her hip. She is quite frankly disappointed, but I can see the gears turning in her brain. She is so desperate to get to her desk, to write this down, to keep it in her folder of miscellaneous scenes that could make it into a future manuscript.

“I’m not sure you’re in a position to negotiate,” Dad says. “Natalie, that wasn’t some silly prank. You ruined a concert! The Harvest Festival’s attendance doubled this year thanks to Star Wars excitement. You made us look amateur.”

“Natalie didn’t cause a flash thunderstorm, Aaron,” Mom says, somewhat in my defense.

Dad shakes his head. “It’s not about the thunderstorm. It’s about the intent.”

“It wasn’t to ruin the concert,” I say.

“Just Reid,” Dad says. My non-answer is answer enough. He shakes his head and strokes his beard, the disappointment clear on his face. “Why? I know you didn’t mean for the speakers to blow, but you still didn’t even think twice about messing up a major event—”

Mom interjects. “Natalie messed up, but you’re going to get a do-over—”

“—with even more pressure to deliver than before—”

“—and Natalie is still crushed over a play that should exist but doesn’t because the school district cares more about a good publicity hit than what’s best for their students. We’re lucky they still value you, Aaron. We really are.”

Mom doesn’t even know about HAVE A HE(ART), but she summed it up in two seconds.

She is pretty much my hero.

“Natalie.” Dad’s tone softens. “If this is still about Melted… did it not occur to you that I could help?”

“Every artist faces rejection,” I say, throwing his words back at him. “You wanted me to move on.”

Dad shakes his head. “I wanted you to talk to me. Why don’t you ever just talk to me?”

I shrug. Because we don’t talk about real things anymore. Because it’s pointless to talk to someone who will never listen.

“I’m keeping the phone.”

“Aaron,” Mom says, her voice sharp. They’re supposed to reprimand as a team, but Mom is so not into this, so I know the sentence will be minimal at least.

“One week,” Dad says. “I think that’s pretty generous.”

And suddenly, I am furious. Not at the phone loss, but because he’s only ever my parent on his terms, and of course this—Reid—is the root of his anger. He puts so much time into Reid, molding him into the conservatory protégé of his dreams, and now he thinks he can just—what? Be my dad because I screwed up?

“I will never understand you, Natalie.”

There it is. The truth of all truths.