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Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. Happy Birthday in Jazz Clarinet
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. Natalie vs. Reid
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. The First Chair Wars
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. Outplayed
  19. CHAPTER TWELVE
  20. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  22. The Prank War
  23. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  24. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  25. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  26. The Setup
  27. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  28. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY
  30. Aaron Jacobson’s Protégé
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  34. Anything But Music
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY
  42. Acknowledgments
  43. More from the Author
  44. About the Author
  45. Also by Marisa Kanter

“Struggle,” Fitz says, clipping the lavalier mic to her shirt. “I am a visual master, but sound is my nemesis! It is annoyingly easier to edit when you check the levels. Always.”

There is no casual way to say this: Fitz is kind of internet famous.

I put on headphones as Fitz sets up the scene. Her bedroom is light woods and pops of pastel. She centers the shot on her bed, a white duvet with two blankets, lavender and mint, draped over the left corner. Two mannequins are in the background, one half-clothed in the bodice of a dress that Fitz is working on for her sister Tessa’s twenty-first birthday. On the other side of the bed is a clothing rack filled with If the Shoe Fitz pieces.

I turn the volume down on the mixer. “Speak.”

“What do you think is up with Henry and Danica?” Fitz asks, her voice still way too loud.

I wince, turning the volume down more. “I don’t know. They have a lot of classes together.”

“Okay. But Henry had literal heart emojis in his eyes when Danica showed up at Chao Down. I have never seen him like that before.” Fitz moves into the frame of the video, sitting crisscross on the end of her bed. “Shouldn’t we keep the dynamics between the HAVE A HE(ART) e-board members professional?”

“Sure. But what if Danica wanted to hug you?”

Fitz launches a pillow at my face. “I am a hypocrite.”

“Henry would tell us if they were more than friends. You’re overthinking this.” I spin the desk chair to face the camera and fix the off-center shot. Through the camera, I notice her cheeks are a deeper shade of pink than the blush she’s wearing. “Why are you overthinking this?”

Fitz runs her fingers through her hair and shrugs. “I don’t know. Danica has always had big queer energy. But maybe I’m projecting. I’m definitely assuming, which is also not cool. Can I go back to pining from a distance? Ditch this alternate reality dream come true where my crush is coming over to my house in the name of saving the arts. Ugh.”

“As she is coming over in—” I check the time on my phone “—forty-five minutes, it’s a little late for that. If it helps, you look fabulous.”

Fitz exhales her anxiety and fluffs her curls. “It does.”

“Okay. Focus on your video. Pizza bagels will be waiting for you when you’re done.”

“Have I ever told you you’re my hero?” Fitz asks.

“Not often enough,” I say.

Fitz sticks her tongue out at me. Certain she has the frame and audio levels for a perfect video, I toss my backpack over my shoulder and exit Fitz’s room, heading down the creaky wood steps that lead me to an empty kitchen.