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Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. Happy Birthday in Jazz Clarinet
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. Natalie vs. Reid
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. The First Chair Wars
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. Outplayed
  19. CHAPTER TWELVE
  20. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  22. The Prank War
  23. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  24. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  25. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  26. The Setup
  27. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  28. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY
  30. Aaron Jacobson’s Protégé
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  34. Anything But Music
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY
  42. Acknowledgments
  43. More from the Author
  44. About the Author
  45. Also by Marisa Kanter

I don’t get the rest of the words out because Dad pulls me into a giant bear hug and it’s so unexpected, so… not my dad. But none of this is. He’s here. Not in Albany with Reid. Not schmoozing with Jenny at the meet-and-greet. Not with Reid at the concert prospective students were invited to. Dad was so excited to take Reid to Albany, to network with musicians who have performed in orchestras around the world.

But he’s here.

I pull back from the hug first. “How?”

“Jenny fit Reid in after lunch instead. We made it back as fast as we could. Traffic was a nightmare.”

“You’re here,” I say, still stunned.

Dad frowns. “Of course I’m here. Everything about Melted was phenomenal. Mrs. Mulaney even cracked a smile during the tap number. I’m pretty sure she loved it. You put so much work into this and it all came together. I’m so proud of you.”

I wipe my cheek, catching a stray tear that escapes. “I didn’t think you were coming home until the morning.”

“We wanted to surprise you,” Dad says.

“Consider me surprised,” I say.

Dad scratches his beard. “I’ve never missed opening night.”

“Well—” I swallow “—it’s never conflicted with a Reid thing.”

My cheeks flush, embarrassed that I’m still admitting how I feel, how much I care.

But… maybe continuing to call him out is the first step toward trying.

His expression softens. “Natalie, I’d never miss your opening night, not for anyone or anything. I’m sorry if I ever made you feel that I would.”

I study my dad. The creases in his forehead that exhibit worry. His mouth, pressed into a thin line. His eyes, glossy, like he could start crying at any moment—but also urgent. I’d never miss your opening night. He said that.

And he didn’t. He means it.

This time, I’m the one reaching out for a hug, my tearstained cheek pressed against my dad’s chest. I know we’re not going to wake up tomorrow with a perfect relationship, but maybe we’ll wake up understanding each other a little better.

My emotions level off until I hear the words “I love you, Nat” spoken just above a whisper and then the tears come once more.

A few minutes later, makeup fixed a second time, I head to my dad’s car.

Once the cacophony of parent and teacher congratulations concluded, Dad tossed me the keys to his car and Mom said, “Be home by midnight.” Henry and Fitz are already on their way to Chao Down with everyone. We’ll push all the tables together “La Vie Boheme” style and order all the dumplings. It’s an LHS drama takeover, now so much bigger because all the clubs are coming too.

On my way out, Mrs. Mulaney spots me and pulls me aside.