Back As If on Cue
Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. Happy Birthday in Jazz Clarinet
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. Natalie vs. Reid
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. The First Chair Wars
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. Outplayed
  19. CHAPTER TWELVE
  20. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  22. The Prank War
  23. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  24. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  25. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  26. The Setup
  27. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  28. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY
  30. Aaron Jacobson’s Protégé
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  34. Anything But Music
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY
  42. Acknowledgments
  43. More from the Author
  44. About the Author
  45. Also by Marisa Kanter

I haven’t seen my parents all night; they’re too busy mixing and mingling and being hosts. Everything came together—from the purple and gold mini-basketball centerpieces to the emotional slideshow that I was up until two a.m. finishing last night, to the speeches that every member of my family delivered to the hundred or so guests scattered throughout Rosario’s ballroom. Dad’s whole family came up from Connecticut and Mom’s flew in from Florida earlier this week. Then you have the assortment of cousins who only manifest at bat mitzvahs and weddings, the family friends my parents couldn’t not invite, and Delia’s friends because it is in fact her party—despite what all the adults in the room indicate.

Now everyone dances.

I will too, after I talk to Henry.

I pull him away from the commotion of the ballroom, toward a sitting area in the hallway.

“It means a lot. That you still came. Despite… everything,” I say, fidgeting with the tulle fabric of my dress. “I’m so sorry I made it feel like our Melted didn’t matter—or if I made you feel like you didn’t matter. All I wanted was to share this show with you. I hate how that got lost in translation… and execution.”

“I… am not the best at expressing myself,” Henry admits. “Your birthday was not my finest moment. Things have been a lot. Pressure at the restaurant, pressure with all the college stuff. I keep retaking the SATs, as if my mediocre math score isn’t my fate. When Melted became something musical and stressful I just… didn’t want to deal with it. But I didn’t want to lose it entirely either. And I threw that on you. I’m sorry too.”

I shake my head. “I didn’t know.”

“I don’t love talking about it. My anxiety,” Henry says with a shrug. His leg bounces and he pushes his glasses up the bridge of his nose. “Danica has anxiety too. We talk about it, and it’s not because I don’t want to talk to you. It’s just easier to talk to someone who understands. But you’re right, you’re not a mind reader.”

I nod, appreciating the new piece of Henry and Danica’s friendship he shares with me.

“Still, I didn’t listen about Melted. Or the prank wars.”

Henry’s laugh is sharp. “You really did not.”

“I don’t think I knew how to be a codirector.”

“You seem to be getting the hang of it with Callahan,” Henry says.

“I know. It’s bizarre,” I say.

“I’m glad,” Henry says, to my surprise. “I want it to be great.”