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Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Title Page
  3. Dedication
  4. CHAPTER ONE
  5. CHAPTER TWO
  6. CHAPTER THREE
  7. Happy Birthday in Jazz Clarinet
  8. CHAPTER FOUR
  9. CHAPTER FIVE
  10. CHAPTER SIX
  11. Natalie vs. Reid
  12. CHAPTER SEVEN
  13. CHAPTER EIGHT
  14. The First Chair Wars
  15. CHAPTER NINE
  16. CHAPTER TEN
  17. CHAPTER ELEVEN
  18. Outplayed
  19. CHAPTER TWELVE
  20. CHAPTER THIRTEEN
  21. CHAPTER FOURTEEN
  22. The Prank War
  23. CHAPTER FIFTEEN
  24. CHAPTER SIXTEEN
  25. CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
  26. The Setup
  27. CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
  28. CHAPTER NINETEEN
  29. CHAPTER TWENTY
  30. Aaron Jacobson’s Protégé
  31. CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
  32. CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
  33. CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
  34. Anything But Music
  35. CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
  36. CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
  37. CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
  38. CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
  39. CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
  40. CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
  41. CHAPTER THIRTY
  42. Acknowledgments
  43. More from the Author
  44. About the Author
  45. Also by Marisa Kanter

Hannah’s attitude snaps my priorities back into focus. Today is not about how good Reid looks in a suit! It’s about Delia, about a day that she’s spent an entire year working toward. It’s about making sure everything is perfect for her today—yes, even this photo!

I cross the electric fence between us, until my arm is just barely touching his. Reid swallows and stiffens and I’m pretty sure this is worse.

“Reid,” I say, my voice low, “pretend you don’t hate me for thirty seconds. For Delia?”

“I can only handle twenty,” he counters, but he’s smiling and his shoulders relax, and suddenly I’m smiling too.

“Deal.”

His eyes meet mine and I notice that one of his curls is out of place. Without thinking about it, I reach to smooth it down. I mean, if we can only handle twenty seconds of this without self-destructing, at least the photo better look good.

“Natalie, you read my mind,” Aunt Jenn says, breaking the tension.

Then Reid’s hand is on the small of my back, and for twenty seconds we pretend not to hate each other. Honestly, it’s not that hard to pretend right now. Because in this moment—and this is something I will deny until the end of time—I don’t feel like hating Reid. At all.

“Wrapped!” Aunt Jenn exclaims, and it breaks the truce.

I sidestep out of the pose and Reid’s hand recoils so fast—and just like that, the electric fence is back up between us. I exhale, relieved the torture that is posed photographs is over. But then it is on to the next task on Mom’s extremely detailed to-do list. Delia disappears with Mom to “get in the zone,” Reid and my dad double-check that the sound system is good to go, and I am on greet-the-guests duty.

“Natalie!” I’d been so fixated on the picture scene, I didn’t even notice my people have arrived and slipped into the back row. Fitz beckons me and I don’t know what’s more shocking—that Fitz is early for something or that Henry is here. Henry’s eyes meet mine and anxiety bubbles in my stomach because he never answered my texts and I’ve been in my feelings all morning about how he’s not going to be here.

But he is here.

And… I miss him.

“You came.” I slide into the bench next to Fitz and wow I hate that this feels like a surprise, not a given. I miss the three of us in the same place. “You’re here. Together.”

I didn’t know Henry and Fitz were back on speaking terms, never mind carpool terms.

“It’s Delia’s bat mitzvah,” Henry says simply.

Fitz nods. “And we’re very much over the standoff!”

“Danica?” I ask.

“We’re just friends,” Henry says.

“We’re… going out next Saturday,” Fitz says.