Chapters (31)
But, you know, I didn’t.
We didn’t, clearly, know what to do.
“No,” I said.
Lucy gave me another hug. “Okay.”
I smiled and felt my lip throb. “Everything will be fine.”
Everything will be fine is both a very comforting thing to say and a thing that anyone who says it must know isn’t true.
Everything is an impossible thing.
Sissy made me stay for a few more minutes after Lucy left, then declared me “fit as a fiddle” and kicked me out just after the bell.
I looked for Berry, but she was gone.
BERRY
I have to go home to help my dad with a job!
BERRY
Hope you’re ok
BERRY
That was bonkers
Then she must have taken a solid few minutes to send me a text that was a field of soccer balls with a little surprised face in the middle.
ANNE
Yeah I’m ok. Split ![]()
ANNE
Did you see Sarah kick the ball at my head?
BERRY
No
ANNE
That’s what Gilly said
BERRY
Yeah
There was a space of three dots appearing and disappearing as I walked down the hall.
BERRY
I mean, first she sets u up with the sign up list, then this.
ANNE
Yeah
BERRY
Seems weird
ANNE
Yeah
ANNE
Maybe she’s just sick of her terrible friends
More dots appeared and disappeared.
BERRY
Maybe
BERRY
You believe her?
ANNE
I don’t know????
I collapsed on the steps.
ANNE
Going home for a hundred aspirin
BERRY
OK!
Did Berry not believe Gilly? Would Gilly lie? I wondered as I strapped on my skates.
BERRY
If you feel faint when ur skating, pull over and I’ll come and get u
ANNE
OK!
ANNE
What if I just feel really cool?
BERRY
Then go with it ![]()
When I coasted out of the parking lot that day, there was another ring of people in the lot, what looked like moms in shorts and sandals, their heads tipped together.
FIFTEEN
On Saturday, Berry texted that she had to help her dad clean the garage, so she couldn’t come over and watch movies.
Which felt like a weirdly fake excuse, but then maybe cleaning the garage is a big thing in Greenville. I technically had to help my moms unpack the kitchen, since there were still boxes all over the place.
Hey, we all had stuff to do, okay?
Then Lucy ended up having to be at the school all day, and Millie had errands to run for a photoshoot she was planning.
And suddenly I was alone in the house.
So of course I got on the phone and called all my friends and I was like, “KEG PARTY AT MY HOUSE, EVERYBODY! YAAASSSS!”
Ha-ha. No.
Can you imagine? No.
No. I went disco roller-skating.