Sitting in the middle of my hard, wooden floor, with the rain still pouring outside my windows, I search my name in YouTube. First new thing that pops up is a clip of the ESPN commentator Stephen A. Smith saying, “Since y’all wanna talk about Rex Carrington, when are you going to acknowledge that he just doesn’t deserve the title you’ve given him. No. 1 high-school basketball player of the year? Puh-lease! And he’s talking about what Carli Alexander doesn’t deserve, who’s a hell of a player, by the way. But can we get back to what he doesn’t deserve?”

I swear I hate that dude. That smug look on his stupid, pointy face. He stays talking shit about somebody. Made a career out of it. Can somebody please tell me why people love to watch other people getting ripped to shreds?

I click on the clip below it: somebody’s homemade video of me going off on Carli. It already has over 300,000 views. You can hear whoever’s videoing in the background saying, “Oh shit! It’s going down.”

The video only plays for a few seconds before I press pause.

That’s not me, I think. That dude whose eyes have no tenderness. Whose mouth has no mercy. Where did I go?

I can’t bring myself to watch anymore. Instead, I look through the comments.

mrmball

Rex is a fool. Definitely not top recruit material

Amara Queen

He just mad cuz he played terribly. Boy is so overrated

Lil Flacco

Has anyone else watched this 10+ times. Bruh, I swear I can’t stop. Lol

Kasey C

That poor girl

Tarantula Girl

Her name is Carli Alexander. Put some RESPEK on her name

Wassup B

Dude is clearly off his pills

365BasketballTV

Check out my channel. BasicsofBallin

Trapgirl

Now this is good entertainment! Better than the Housewives of Atlanta

lifeonthecourt

Rex Carrington is still the truth. He does look like he needs therapy though

LisaLee529

It’s obvious he’s been hurt. You all need to leave him alone!

Blissfully Joi

Somebody needs to put a foot in his ass. Carli Alexander did not deserve that. If you don’t know who she is, then look her up

Daquan

That was cold

That’s not me! I throw my phone across the room, and it crashes into the glass box of beetles on my bookshelf. Don’t they get it? I’m not capable of that much cruelty! It came out of nowhere, unfolding its brutal body inside of me. I couldn’t stop it! And now I’m the one stuck with the mess. With people judging me, like they know me.

Nobody knows who I am!