“Connecticut is a no-fault state.”

“So I hired you, why?”

“To limit the damage.”

“Try harder.”

Jesus H. Christ.

* * * *

When your wife cheats on you, you think of some weird shit, like:

Is his penis bigger than mine?

Probably. But that is something that I would have cared more about when I was younger, not going on forty. You get past the point of caring about shit like that. As trite as it sounds, one of the things I’ve come to realize over the years is that physical appearance is less important to me. I even like fat women. For me, it’s all about the energy that a woman gives off. Katharine had bad energy. The New Girl has great energy. She’s cool. The other thing I’ve learned is that people are compatible with just about anyone. The idea that there is one person for everyone is a myth. This is why arranged marriages are often more successful. It is a matter of managed expectations.

My more immediate concern is Weber. The fucker didn’t say one word during dinner last night. If the press ever got wind of his behavior, we would have TV trucks lined up outside the office. He is quite obviously depressed, and possibly suicidal. I have not laid eyes on him since he got in the car from the restaurant. Who knows if the car even took him home—he might have just gone straight to the office, again. He’s never told me anything about his personal life, or his family; everything I’ve read is what Bloomberg and the WSJ have put together. Rich family, from Los Angeles, father an orthopedic surgeon, a big one, one of these guys that makes artificial joints, patented the design. Grew up privileged. Falling out with family, over what, nobody knows. No siblings. His Harvard classmates barely remember him.

Weber, an enigma.

I am convinced that Weber is trying to lose money. There is no other explanation. The stock market is obviously a bubble, and Weber behaves as if it is going to go on forever. Not only is he long, but he is using full Reg T margin. He is 200% long. The market has gotten more volatile, and we have had days where we take massive drawdowns, and he only takes the opportunity to buy more. He is insane. He takes an insane amount of risk. On a $10 billion fund, we have P&L variations of up to $400 million a day. Every $100 million that we make is approximately $500,000 that I have to spend on lawyers. Once the music stops, the lawyers stop getting paid, and Katharine (and Michael) end up with the kids.

Weber: B 10000 RMBS

Weber: B 40000 AMCC

Weber: B 25000 CMGI

Weber: B 75000 CSCO

Weber: B 50000 PMCS

Weber: B 50000 WCOM

Weber: B 5000 YHOO

Weber: B 15000 JDSU

I had been so preoccupied thinking about lawyers and money that I completely lost track of time. Furthermore, I forgot to cancel my other two credit cards.