Back After the War
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise
  3. About the Author
  4. Also by Anita Frank
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Chapter Seven
  15. Chapter Eight
  16. Chapter Nine
  17. Chapter Ten
  18. Chapter Eleven
  19. Chapter Twelve
  20. Chapter Thirteen
  21. Chapter Fourteen
  22. Chapter Fifteen
  23. Chapter Sixteen
  24. Chapter Seventeen
  25. Chapter Eighteen
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. Chapter Twenty-Three
  31. Chapter Twenty-Four
  32. Chapter Twenty-Five
  33. Chapter Twenty-Six
  34. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  35. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  36. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  37. Chapter Thirty
  38. Chapter Thirty-One
  39. Chapter Thirty-Two
  40. Chapter Thirty-Three
  41. Chapter Thirty-Four
  42. Chapter Thirty-Five
  43. Chapter Thirty-Six
  44. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  45. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  46. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  47. Chapter Forty
  48. Part Two
  49. Chapter Forty-One
  50. Chapter Forty-Two
  51. Chapter Forty-Three
  52. Chapter Forty-Four
  53. Chapter Forty-Five
  54. Chapter Forty-Six
  55. Chapter Forty-Seven
  56. Chapter Forty-Eight
  57. Chapter Forty-Nine
  58. Chapter Fifty
  59. Chapter Fifty-One
  60. Chapter Fifty-Two
  61. Chapter Fifty-Three
  62. Chapter Fifty-Four
  63. Chapter Fifty-Five
  64. Chapter Fifty-Six
  65. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  66. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  67. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  68. Chapter Sixty
  69. Acknowledgements
  70. Extract
  71. Chapter One
  72. Chapter Two
  73. Chapter Three
  74. About the Publisher

‘Gwen I—’

‘You cannot stay, Jack.’

The light fades from his eyes. ‘I suppose now Gordon’s no longer a threat you’ve no need of me …’

‘It’s not that – don’t you see? I can’t let you take the risk. Your coming back was never part of the plan, Jack. If you survived the war you were supposed to get as far away as you could … to be safe.’ She does not want to let him go, not when she has just found him, discovered him in a way she never thought possible. But he has sacrificed so much for her, letting him go is the greatest kindness she can do for him now, regardless of what it might cost her. The time has come for him to safeguard himself, not her. ‘What if they find you, Jack? What if the Helvedon police have already shared your details and right now detectives are on their way down from Newcastle to—’

‘Gwen—’

‘I can’t let you risk everything for us, Jack. If anything happened to you, I would never forgive myself.’

‘Why?’

‘What?’

‘Why do you care what happens to me?’

‘Because …’ She closes her eyes. The truth of it all finally dawns on her. ‘Because I love you.’

He does not answer at once. She stands before him, her heart exposed, and yet she does not feel vulnerable. She feels only regret that it has taken her until now to truly know herself. It is knowledge that has come too late.

‘Gwen … There is something I’ve been wanting to tell you, but somehow I could never find the right moment.’ Jack cups her face and Gwen cannot stop herself from leaning into his palm. He smiles, his thumb gently caressing her cheek. The touch feels magical. ‘Now is that moment …’

French coast, 6th June 1944

Jack stood at the ship’s rail in the early morning light, contemplating what the new day would bring. He was just one of hundreds wearing full battledress crammed upon the deck of the troop carrier. The time had come. The churning sea was crowded with vessels – minesweepers, frigates, battleships and destroyers, ships of all shapes and sizes as far as the eye could see – all destined for the golden beaches of Normandy looming ominously before them.

Craning his neck he could just make out the plumes of smoke rising beyond the silver barrage balloons that hovered over the ships ahead. The men ducked as an aircraft screamed over them. The cry of ‘One of ours, boys!’ was met with a muted cheer and a collective sigh of relief.

A few soldiers crouched together playing cards, while others stared out to the horizon, green-gilled and pale, their bleached lips moving in silent prayer. The man next to him nudged Jack with his elbow. He offered an open cigarette packet. Jack shook his head.

‘Might be your last chance of a fag for a while, mate.’

‘I don’t smoke.’