Back After the War
Chapters (74)
  1. Cover
  2. Praise
  3. About the Author
  4. Also by Anita Frank
  5. Note to Readers
  6. Dedication
  7. Part One
  8. Chapter One
  9. Chapter Two
  10. Chapter Three
  11. Chapter Four
  12. Chapter Five
  13. Chapter Six
  14. Chapter Seven
  15. Chapter Eight
  16. Chapter Nine
  17. Chapter Ten
  18. Chapter Eleven
  19. Chapter Twelve
  20. Chapter Thirteen
  21. Chapter Fourteen
  22. Chapter Fifteen
  23. Chapter Sixteen
  24. Chapter Seventeen
  25. Chapter Eighteen
  26. Chapter Nineteen
  27. Chapter Twenty
  28. Chapter Twenty-One
  29. Chapter Twenty-Two
  30. Chapter Twenty-Three
  31. Chapter Twenty-Four
  32. Chapter Twenty-Five
  33. Chapter Twenty-Six
  34. Chapter Twenty-Seven
  35. Chapter Twenty-Eight
  36. Chapter Twenty-Nine
  37. Chapter Thirty
  38. Chapter Thirty-One
  39. Chapter Thirty-Two
  40. Chapter Thirty-Three
  41. Chapter Thirty-Four
  42. Chapter Thirty-Five
  43. Chapter Thirty-Six
  44. Chapter Thirty-Seven
  45. Chapter Thirty-Eight
  46. Chapter Thirty-Nine
  47. Chapter Forty
  48. Part Two
  49. Chapter Forty-One
  50. Chapter Forty-Two
  51. Chapter Forty-Three
  52. Chapter Forty-Four
  53. Chapter Forty-Five
  54. Chapter Forty-Six
  55. Chapter Forty-Seven
  56. Chapter Forty-Eight
  57. Chapter Forty-Nine
  58. Chapter Fifty
  59. Chapter Fifty-One
  60. Chapter Fifty-Two
  61. Chapter Fifty-Three
  62. Chapter Fifty-Four
  63. Chapter Fifty-Five
  64. Chapter Fifty-Six
  65. Chapter Fifty-Seven
  66. Chapter Fifty-Eight
  67. Chapter Fifty-Nine
  68. Chapter Sixty
  69. Acknowledgements
  70. Extract
  71. Chapter One
  72. Chapter Two
  73. Chapter Three
  74. About the Publisher

He stands with his back to her, his wet shirt hanging over the chair, dripping onto the cobbled floor as he towel-dries his hair. She is unable to find her voice. Only when he discards the towel does he notice her standing in the doorway.

‘I thought you might need some dry things.’ Her cheeks flush with embarrassment. ‘I’ll just leave them on the bed and then they’re there if you need them.’ Her feet feel heavy as she advances into the room. She places the stack of clothes upon the bed and turns to leave, but she stops as her eyes fall upon a bundle of letters lying on the apple crate. She has seen them before, buried in his kitbag. Her fingertips trace her name across the first envelope.

‘I wrote to you every day.’ Jack’s voice is gruff. ‘I just never had the courage to send them. I thought it better that I didn’t.’

Gwen faces him slowly and as she does so, she notices for the first time the network of scars that bear testimony to his six years of service, his six years of survival. She is seized by a morbid fascination as the stitched white scars and puckered skin exert an irresistible draw. Her eyes stray from one to the next: the straight scar on his lower arm; the circular blemish in his shoulder; the line that tracks around his side; a silvered patch on his chest.

‘Dear God, Jack … what happened to you?’

‘It doesn’t matter what happened to me … what matters is they never stopped me.’

‘How did you get that one?’ She gestures to what she presumes is a bullet hole in his shoulder.

‘Dunkirk.’

‘And that one?’ she asks, braving a step forward as she points to his arm.

‘Shrapnel, Gazala, ’forty-two.’

‘And that one?’ she whispers, drifting closer. Her fingers brush the stitched line at his side.

‘Primosole … ’forty-three.’ His eyes bore into her, but she does not meet them. ‘Each time I thought I’d drawn my last breath I thought of you, Gwen … and another breath would come.’ He swallows hard. ‘All I wanted was to see you. To come home. To have a chance, Gwen … the chance of having you love me …’

‘And that one?’ Her fingertips slowly trace the puckered patch on his chest; it rises and falls under her touch. She lifts her gaze. Their eyes lock.

‘Don’t, Gwen,’ he whispers huskily. ‘If you don’t mean it, don’t come any closer. I beg you.’

Gwen’s hand drops, but her gaze remains. She takes a single step forward.

He pulls her to him, his lips finding hers with an urgency that mirrors her own. Her fingers curl around his shoulders before sliding across his back and tunnelling through his hair, drawing him ever closer – for her need, her desire is every bit as great as his.

She abruptly pulls away. His hands fall from her waist.