Chapters (27)
- Cover
- By Taylor Jenkins Reid
- Dedication
- Author’s Note
- December 29, 1984
- Seven Years Earlier
- Summer 1980
- December 29, 1984
- Fall 1980
- Spring 1981
- June 1981
- July 1981
- December 29, 1984
- August 1981
- Fall 1981
- Winter 1982
- Summer 1982
- Summer 1983
- Fall 1983
- Spring and Summer 1984
- Fall 1984
- The Day Before
- December 29, 1984
- Acknowledgments
- Further Reading
- About the Author
- What’s next onyour reading list?
Frances’s face was flushed, her eyelids swollen. But when Frances turned her gaze up from the floor, it was her eyes that gripped Joan.
Supposedly, children are resilient. But Joan suspected this was merely something we tell ourselves because we are terrified they are just as delicate as we are.
Joan put her thumb to Frances’s cheek and softly wiped her tears away.
Frances did not say much after that. She never ate the Rice Krispies treats. But the two of them watched TV together until it was time for Frances to go to bed.
Frances got into the shower and bathed on her own.
Joan lay down on Frances’s bed. As the shower ran, she looked up at the plastic stars on Frances’s ceiling. They were disorderly, those stars. They had no relation to the actual night sky.
There was nothing she knew to do except take every single star down off that ceiling.
When Frances came out of the bathroom in an oversized T-shirt, her hair wet, Joan was still on the stepladder.
“What are you doing?” she asked Joan.
Joan got down. “Turn off the light,” she said.
Frances did, and the stars began to glow. She looked up at the ceiling. “Did you move them?”
“Come here,” Joan said, patting a spot on the bed. Frances got in. Joan tucked her in and then lay down next to her.
“Do you see those stars in a line there, right above you? And how it looks like there’s a big basket at the bottom?”
“The Big Dipper,” Frances said.
Joan smiled. “Exactly right.”
“Part of Major Ursa,” Frances said.
“Ursa Major. That’s right—you’ve been listening. What’s the one across from it? That looks similar but upside down?” Joan pointed just to the right of where they had been looking.
“The Little Dipper. Ursa…Minor?”
Joan kissed her forehead. “Smart kid.”
“Show me the others,” Frances said. And so Joan showed her the other two she had managed to arrange during Frances’s shower, Cassiopeia and Lyra.
“I love it,” Frances said. “Thank you.”
And then Joan tried to say good night.
“Please don’t go,” Frances said. “Please just stay all night.”
“I’ll be here. I’ll be right downstairs.”
Joan heard the front door open then and relaxed, knowing Barb was finally home. She didn’t say anything to Frances.
Frances shook her head. “No, I mean will you please stay here with me until I fall asleep.”
“Okay, you got it,” Joan said, laying her head down on Frances’s pillow.
As she did, Frances moved her arm underneath Joan’s neck, pulling Joan toward her with a confidence and authority that startled Joan. As if Joan were the child, and Frances the adult. And Frances kissed Joan’s forehead, just as Joan had done to her. “I’m sorry for what I did, Joanie,” Frances said as she began to drift.