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Chapters (43)
  1. Cover
  2. About the Author
  3. Also by Dermot Healy
  4. Praise
  5. A GOAT’S SONG
  6. I. Christmas Day in the Workhouse
  7. 1. Waiting for Catherine
  8. 2. Walking the Triangle
  9. 3. A Taxi Through New York at Midnight
  10. 4. Shangrila
  11. 5. The Nomads
  12. 6. Christmas Morning
  13. 7. The Love Object
  14. 8. The Cockatiel
  15. II. The Salmon of Knowledge
  16. 9. The Death of Matti Bonner
  17. 10. The Fenian Ledger
  18. 11. The News at Six
  19. 12. The Summer Home
  20. 13. The Outsiders
  21. 14. As Gaelige
  22. 15. O’Muichin and the Cléirseach
  23. 16. The Salmon of Knowledge
  24. III. The Hares
  25. 17. The Mourners
  26. 18. The Greatest Man in Ballyconeely
  27. 19. Oh No, Don’t Stop the Carnival
  28. 20. The Illustrated Sons of Ireland
  29. 21. The Sea
  30. 22. Through the Downhill Tunnel
  31. 23. The Irishman
  32. 24. Madame George
  33. 25. What Did Shamey Coyle Do When He Left Prison?
  34. IV. The Musical Bridge
  35. 26. Flying in Belfast
  36. 27. Crossing the Musical Bridge
  37. 28. Searching for Jack in Yeats’ County
  38. 29. Guilt–tripping
  39. 30. Corrloch
  40. 31. The Cuckoo Mocks the Corncrake
  41. 32. A Time of Big Seas
  42. 33. Popular Songs
  43. 34. Happiness

Jack and Catherine lay together in a kind of stupor. When they stepped out, the pale sun was huge on the Atlantic. Closer inland a grey haze enveloped everything. Ravens tossed themselves over the sea. A starling flew up from under a heap of car batteries that sat on the galvanize roof of a shed. Down below, the seaweed was ticking away in the fog. A coot was dabbing along on a small stream that ran down to the sea. Then came a shot. The coot gave a squawk of fear, and without once looking back at the young who were following her, nor her mate who was following her, she dived.

“I had a bad dream,” she said.

“What?”

She closed her arms about him.

“It’s lovely to feel you here,” she said.

“I think there is something wrong with me,” said Jack.

He sat up terrified. She found he was soaking. She towelled him down. But the band of burnished heat round his temple would not shift.

“It must have been your sweat I was wading through,” she said, “in the dream I had.”

Light-headed, she washed his face. The next time she woke he wasn’t there. She found him naked on his knees in the bathroom with his forehead placed against the cold tiles on the wall.

“Jack – what are you doing?”

“I’m trying to cool myself down.”

She knelt beside him.

“Don’t touch me,” said Jack.

“No, I won’t touch you,” she said.

“You promise me?”

“I promise you.”

“That’s all right then. You can stay there.”

“Now you will have to look after me,” she said.

“Don’t leave me alone in the house,” she said. “I dread being alone here these days.”

“Why has no one come to visit us?” she’d ask. “The only people we see are fishermen.”

“They have their own problems.”

“We’ve driven people away with our arguing,” declared Catherine.

“We’ve made mistakes,” agreed Jack.

“We are everything I used hate to see in other couples.” She sought out his eye. “Can you imagine a time when we might not be together?”

He thought a while.

“No.”

“And yet we should consider it.”

“I can’t.”

“I never realized how vulnerable we were,” then she added, “sexually.”

Everything was touched by a new grave hysteria. They talked of the possibilities of going sober, of remaining together all their natural lives.

“In Mayo?” asked Catherine.

“Why not?” he replied.

“I’ll have to think about it,” she said, half indignant, and half joking. “I’m lonely enough as it is. It makes me desperate to think of spending my whole life here.”

“Won’t I be with you?” he said.

“Will you?” she said.

She heard the key turn in the door and someone came running up the stairs. Sara rushed into her room.

“My God, Cathy,” she said, “What happened to your face?”

“I walked into a door.”

“You did not.”