The one good thing that came out of that marriage was my grandson Dingus. He’s turning out to be one fine specimen. Just made the varsity football team. The first black quarterback in the history of his high school. He in the eleventh grade and I ain’t never seen a C on his report card. He ain’t never come home drunk and he told me drugs scare him. He say he gets his high from exercising and eating vegetables and drinking that protein stuff everyday. I got my money on him. That he gon’ grow up and be something one day. Putting the boy in that Christian school all them years was the smartest thing Paris could’ve done. Going to church at least one Sunday a month wouldn’t kill her though. I just hope I live long enough to see him in college. And mark my words: if he wins a scholarship or goes on any kind of TV, watch and see if his daddy don’t come rushing out of nowhere to claim him then.

The day before I got here, Paris had called the house and after leaving three messages on my answering machine and she didn’t hear from me, she called emergency and they told her I’d been admitted, that I was in ICU, and of course she was all set to hop on a airplane but I grabbed that doctor’s arm and shook my head back and forth so many times I got the spins. He told her I’d probably be home in three to four days. That I was almost out of the danger zone. That if I kept improving they would move me to a regular room on Thursday, which is tomorrow, and if my breathing test is at least 70 percent I can probably go home Saturday morning. It don’t make no sense for Paris to spend unnecessary money to come see me when I’m still breathing and she can take that very same money and slide it inside my birthday card in three weeks.

Sometimes I feel like they made a mistake in the hospital when they handed Janelle to me. She a case study in and of herself. Been going to college off and on for the past fifteen years and still don’t have no degree in nothing. Hell, she should be the professor by now. Every time I turn around she taking another class. One minute it’s stained glass. The next it’s drapes and valances. But I think she was tired of being creative and now she wanna be a professional. Did she tell me she switched over to real estate? Who knows? Maybe all them years of comparing one child to another messed her up. Treating her like a baby is probably why she still act like one. Me or her daddy didn’t have such high expectations of her like we did with the first ones, and maybe this is what made her not have too many for herself. I don’t know. But I have to blame Cecil for the chile being so wishy-washy. He lived and breathed for that girl. Spoiled her. Janelle couldn’t do no wrong. But back then neither one of us knew we was doing it.