Chapters (81)
I get it. There’s something horrifying about being left alone in the dark, especially with someone you think is dead.
I try not to think about what it must be like for the victims. Paralyzed but aware, left helpless in the dark with monsters and family.
When the last unclaimed body is tossed into the van, the workers slam it shut and drive off.
Those who didn’t go in the van trot across the street to the school. Then the families, whether or not they’re done shoveling dirt on their loved ones, drop their shovels and run after the workers, obviously not wanting to be left behind.
Mom starts to make animal noises of anxiety as she watches everyone leave. When you’re paranoid, the last place you want to be is trapped in a car where you can’t run and can’t hide.
“It’s okay,” I say. “They’ll be back. They’ll let us out when they cool off. And then we’ll go find Paige.”
She yanks on the door handle, then jumps over to my side to try the other one. She bangs on the window. She rattles the screen separating the front seat from the back. Her breathing becomes a pant.
She’s spiraling into serious freak-out mode.
The last thing we need is major hysteria in a space smaller than a sofa.
As the final stragglers run past my window, I yell at them. “Put me in another car!”
They don’t even glance my way as they scramble across the street into the darkness.
And I’m left stuck in a very tight space with Mom.
22
ALL KINDS of worries swirl around in my head.
I take a deep breath. I try to shove all the worries aside and focus on being centered.
“Mom?” I keep my voice quiet and calm. What I really want to do is crawl under the seat to get out of her way when she goes nuclear. But that’s not an option.
I hold out a bottle of water. “Do you want some water?”
She looks at me like I’m mad. “Stop drinking that!” She snatches it from my hand and stashes it away below the rear window. “We need to conserve it.”
Her eyes dart around every corner of our jail. Her desperate worry shows in every line of her face, and she is the picture of anxiety. It seems there are more of those lines showing up every day between her eyebrows and around her mouth. The stress is killing her.
She rummages through her pockets. With every smashed egg she finds in her pockets, she gets more frantic. To my relief, someone has taken her cattle prod. I hate to think how much force that took.
“Mom?”