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Chapters (45)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. Make It Delicious
  4. PART ONE
  5. 1 HALA Going Home
  6. 2 MAWAL Nawara
  7. 3 SORAYA Fire
  8. 4 KHADIJA Sand and Fire
  9. PART TWO
  10. 5 HALA Mourning
  11. 6 MAWAL Crossing
  12. 7 SORAYA Visas
  13. 8 MAWAL Flowers from My Roza
  14. 9 KHADIJA School
  15. 10 HALA White
  16. 11 HALA Weddings
  17. 12 SORAYA Success
  18. 13 MAWAL America
  19. 14 KHADIJA Birthday
  20. 15 SORAYA The American Dream
  21. 16 KHADIJA Social Studies
  22. 17 SORAYA Fancy-Dance Man
  23. 18 HALA Sharif
  24. 19 MAWAL Looking
  25. 20 HALA Aqaba
  26. 21 HALA Visiting
  27. 22 MAWAL The Beautiful Gift
  28. 23 KHADIJA Traditions
  29. 24 HALA Dress Up
  30. 25 HALA Backgammon
  31. PART THREE
  32. 26 KHADIJA Sleeping Over
  33. 27 SORAYA Love Story/Remembering Story
  34. 28 KHADIJA Mothers
  35. 29 MAWAL Maziuna
  36. 30 SORAYA Clouds
  37. 31 KHADIJA Long Distance
  38. 32 HALA Old Men
  39. PART FOUR
  40. 33 HALA Naked Underneath
  41. 34 MAWAL Safe
  42. 35 KHADIJA Fire
  43. 36 SORAYA Just Down the Road
  44. 37 HALA Bare Walls
  45. Acknowledgments

Where are you going? I need to talk to you. Please come back here.

There are whispers about him. Some stretch eight thousand miles, others only go around the corner. There are rumors that something is not right—and indeed very wrong—with this young man who used to be the fastest runner in Nawara, his faraway, never completely forgotten, never entirely remembered village.

If you had asked his mother, she’d have said that it started when he was a child and he saw his father killed. He went blind for three weeks. When his eyes finally saw again he stared deeper at everything and would go for hours without blinking. His mother would say he did this in order to focus. Everyone else said he did it because he had been touched by the evil eye.

Dolls fill the night with unblinking eyes.

His eyes are large, languid, intense, often-unblinking-for-hours. It gives people the impression that they are the center of his universe.

Chase them.

He discovered that he could run very quickly. He won any race with anyone of any age. He was the fastest runner in Nawara.

Where have the mountains gone?

You can see that in him now as he walks down the sidewalk with purpose toward nowhere. His stride is long, his body looks as though it will burst with stored-up energy.

He can be wonderful and he can be terrifying.

There was the time he came in second in a twenty-six-mile marathon and couldn’t speak English well enough to give an interview.

There was the time he ran in the middle of the street to pick up the little boy who had chased a ball and not seen the car. He saved the boy’s life and broke his own leg.

There was the time—in Los Angeles—when he went to his sister’s house for dinner during Ramadan and his nine-year-old niece walked into the unlocked bathroom where he was jabbing a needle into his leathery skin. Her scream made him jump and his brother-in-law run and then shout and curse—if only he knew the whole story—and send him on his way, which turned out to be back where he started.

No one knows what goes on inside. It’s been a while. Most of his friends are elsewhere, and most of his other friends are women. You might be surprised at the number of young women who have seen his beautiful eyes as they stare into their own and who have been flattered by his direct gaze. They enjoy his intensity, enjoy what they believe to be attention and devotion pouring from his eyes. They can tell he has lived a large and tragic life, which is why they accept his erratic behavior as moodiness, his ability to sleep for twenty-four hours as general fatigue, and his midnight walks and talking to birds as a love for nature.