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Back Walk on the Wilder Side Save as PDF
Chapters (46)
  1. Cover
  2. Dedication
  3. 1
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  42. Epilogue
  43. Excerpt from Wilder With You
  44. Also by Serena Bell
  45. Acknowledgments
  46. About the Author

“And I understand if you don’t feel like you can, um, do this,” she says. She makes a gesture that loops in both of us. “I haven’t been fair, asking you to go behind Connor’s back and risk that friendship.”

I watch her quietly. The way her eyes take me in. Seeing me.

The man you really are.

I have to close my eyes for a second. When I open them again, she’s still looking at me. And I make a decision.

I cross my arms. “Being with you does put my friendship with Connor at risk.”

Her shoulders slump. She straightens right away, but I see it. And that gives me even more courage. She wants this, too.

“But to loosely quote an amazing woman I know—” I reach behind her and gently tug the elastic out of her hair so I can thread my fingers through it— “I don’t fucking care.”

I lean in and kiss her.

24

Rachel

When Amanda first sends out the invitations for girls’ night, it’s at her house, but at the last minute she emails everyone—including me—to change the venue to Rush Creek Bakery. No explanation. I mean, not that she needs one. Nan’s baked goods have been a Rush Creek treat since before I was born. I’m not surprised when she pulls a tray of hot chocolate chip cookies out of the oven just for us.

But once the vibrators have made their appearance and we’re passing them around, Amanda explains herself.

“You guys know from the e-vite that it was originally supposed to be at my house?”

Lots of nods. Hanna’s here, and Lucy, along with a passel of Amanda’s other friends, mostly youngish moms who keep making not-exactly-jokes about how long it’s been since they had sex and how unlikely it is that that will change any time soon.

“Two days ago, I found out Heath had to work late. And I just kept picturing one of the kids waking up or not being able to sleep and running down the stairs and popping into the living room while there were toys spread out everywhere. And how would I explain this?”

She holds up one of the most popular toys, a rabbit vibrator. This is the original—like the one Miranda famously hips Charlotte to on Sex and the City. On this model, the part that juts out to provide clitoral stimulation looks like an actual bunny, even though the more modern rabbit designs only vaguely hint at floppy ears and hopping.