Back Toad
Chapters (34)
  1. Copyright Notice
  2. FOREWORD
  3. I
  4. The goldfish, the pink chaise, the fly
  5. Lance Sterling fires his cap guns, Omar takes a bath
  6. Carlotta
  7. The scarred old toad
  8. The restless creeping of the worm
  9. The raised blade
  10. The Hung Far Low
  11. A ten-dollar car for ten dollars
  12. The country house
  13. The broken pencil question
  14. The morning pill, bedtime pill, two o’clock in the afternoon pill
  15. II
  16. A family of pastoral delinquents
  17. Rosen, Lance, Omar, Aram
  18. The toad’s peculiar poison
  19. The fewmet of the bully
  20. It’s nice shitting in the woods
  21. The Volcano Bar diet
  22. The first tomato
  23. The goddamn baby
  24. III
  25. The house almost atop the hill
  26. Rennel
  27. This place is hard to find
  28. A steely determination to die
  29. Siesta Time 24-Hour Laundromat
  30. The cat, the fish, and the toad
  31. EDITOR’S NOTE
  32. Also by Katherine Dunn
  33. A Note About the Author
  34. Newsletter Sign-up

Sam smiled and urged them on. “It’s true. I’d like to go around picking fruit sometime. I met some migrant workers in town one day. One was an old man with white stubble all over his face. He looked frosted. He was telling me that all he does now is take care of kids. Everybody leaves their kids with him while they go out into the fields. He tells them stories and hands out cookies and apples or whatever. He was a wise old man. I sure would like to hear his stories. They were all fine people. Very full of life and their eyes very nice.”

Lichtenstein lifted his head, agreeing with Sam. He stirred the rice bowl and tweezed out a piece of meat. “People who work with their hands and bodies are genuinely happier. What they do shows. Every move they make has an observable consequence that can be appreciated immediately.”

“But you have to believe in what you’re doing,” Sam said.

“Yes. And be aware and in tune with the nature and rhythm of the work. That’s where meditation comes in. The Native Americans had a custom when a boy came of age. First, he had to run twenty miles through the desert with his mouth full of water and spit it out at the end. Then he went alone into the wilderness and fasted until he had a vision. The vision became his totem and he took his name from it.”

“That’s something!” Sam cried. “That really is! But, you know, just doing something long enough and hard enough becomes unconscious meditation. That’s the best kind.”

Someone had shut the windows of the house. The bugs were coming in to the light. The music was softer. I had brought the liver special for Carlotta. She sat against the wall, took up pieces and chewed them from her fingers. The oil stove beside her sputtered and rumbled. Candles in bottles threw yellow light over us all. Angelina came in and slunk behind the stove, lay down and put her long black head in Carlotta’s lap. Carlotta slipped a piece of liver between the dog’s teeth. The throat convulsed as she swallowed.

“Angelina is a virgin.”

Her voice was sleepy. Aimed at nobody. Her head was rested against the wall and her eyelids drooped.

Sam smiled. She smiled back. I didn’t want that starting up again, so I asked, “Are you still working?”